im not in the gd mood..jus not my day today..seriusly i jus hate my life! well went to skol for math remedial and we did not study aniting excet copying all the corrections for math paper 2 and i was like..wat? only do correction ah? no studying? gosh..i really need help seh in my maths! pls i beg someone out there to help me in maths..and i promise if i pass my maths for o level..im gonna treat the person..anything!!

today went to SP for some course tat we had signed up and guess wat..in between the courses talk and lunch break..i discovered i lost my wallet..so i was like no mood at all to eat and luckily theres maan's friend who study at the SP and looked for it where i last took out my wallet which is the 7-11 haha..so damn careless!! so all thanks to maan's friend tat sanggup to go to the 7-11 and looked for my wallet..so insyaallah if we meet again..i blnaje u k..hehe!

luckily i went for the courses thingy coz it did help me decide wat courses is gd and interest me..i decided to take digtal media at first and then i came across another more courses as film&media studies and audio-visual technology! but then wen i attend this particular course at SP jus now..its abt infocomm security managment..and guess wat i learn?

i learned how to get ppl's passwerd,hack ppl's computer and discovered all the secrets documents in ppl's computer..cool! so we decided to try it out and hack ppl's computer..but then when i was abt to hack ppl's computer..maan hack mine..! haiz..he was like..controlling my computer..u jus hav to chose wat you want to do on other ppl's computer..so maan was like hiding my icons and i cant seem to go anywhere or click anythng!!

so was damn mad..and asked the teacher how to stop the hacking thingy and managed to do it and decided to hack maan's computer and guess wat..suddenly..i cant clik anything and i was like worried and angry..so told my partner tat my computer was lagging and cant seem to clik anything!! and guess wat..maan was laughing at me as he hack my computer once agaiN!!

argh! he did it again!..so no mood..shut down my computer!! to play safe mah! hah..seriusly i had fun in tat course!! so mayb i will consider it my first choice! haha..so if like e.g i kena fired by one of the company..guess wat will i do? i will log in their account and destroy all thier documents!! bankrupt!! kwang3!!

so ppl with laptop..don ever bring ur laptop at the wireless place or places tat u can connect ur laptop such as macdonald or coffeebean..coz i can track down all ur documents..know wat u been doing and the best part!! your passwerd!! haha!! better watch out guys!

so mum was like..get ready for tuition and i was like? ape?! coz honestly i don like tuition anymore..so my dad was like.." dh!! tk nk sudah!! bair dia fail!! org nk kasi dia pandai dia tk nk kan!! kau susah jgn nk cari ibu ke ayah!! fuck lar!! why must i always go ur way!! why cant i hav my way for once!! so in the end tag along but wif a sulky face!! and reached there and the tutor was like..next week then u attend!

wat?? haiz..mum was like confident TAIK!! shud not tag along jus now and make a fool of myself!! haiz..why must it be likt this..wehn i don do wat u told me..you parents will like threatened me tat i cant go out wif friends or wateva ah..but did u guys listen to me for once? no!! not even once!! oh god!! is it a test for mE? to test my patience?

I HATE YOU,MUM
I HATE YOU,DAD

it feels like theres no holiday at all..as usual..had to wake up early in the morning jus like the school normal time..today remedial started at 8am..siao! so first remedial was combined humanities..imagine u will be learning history and social studies early2 in the morning..boring! so i kept moving ard as my legs and thighs felt damn weak and tired..sat ard..looked ard instead of looking at the book and listening to ms yip..kept lying down on the table and shut my eyes for a minute..cant help it..so damn sleepy till now!

many did not turn up today for both combined humanities and math remedial..they seem not to care anymore! these june holiday remedial is my only chance for me to buck up..my mid yr results really sux and passed only two sujects..so damn pathetic! parents kept asking me to study and stop playing the computer! honestly..computer is my life! cant really live tat long w/o it..haha..well as u noe..i need the computer to update my blog and let out all my feelings! been sick n tired of my life especially living wif the unreasonable family of mine but i jus hav to pretend im ok!

so today some of my cousing are gg bintan..while the others gg bintan on this friday! im gonna miss all the fun! miss the time when we rode the 'golf car' and drive ard the area and everyone had their own turn to drive it and nearly drove into the longkang!..went to the beach early in the morning jus a few bangalow away from our bangalow..at night we will be like catching frog at the pool jus bhind our bangalow while the rest were doing bbq! how nice if were to go on a holiday wif a big families again! but then this yr..all those fun..im gonna miss it! its all bcoz my dad had paid for a holiday to terengganu where only mum,dad,lil bro n me will be gg..it sux alot coz im not tat close to them..brother cant tag along as hes serving NS this cuming 7 june! oh abgku..gonna miss ya! whos gg to play ps2 wif me? hurhur..

so tmr will be the last remedial of the week..can hav a rest from all those studying! so if anyone has any plans this june holiday..pls ask me out! i don want to stay at home! but pls pls..don ask me out on tue and thur which i hav ngaji! haiz! no holiday!!

so peeps..enjoy ur holdiay k!
but pls don do aniting stupid or bad this june holiday.
behave urself especially boonlayians!
say NO to drugs! hehe

i want anything!

had mly o level today..gosh! was damn scared tat i screwed up..last night study real hard for my peribahasa and kata berbunga..lil bro helped me out yesterday by asking me the meaning of the peribahasa and most of the peribahasa tat lil bro asked me came out..cool..hehe..

the bina ayat was ok for me..i can still did it exept tat im not sure of this phrase 'tanda perhargaan'..so if anyone noes wats the meaning pls tell me k! haha just to make sure im right..as for the paper 1..gosh! honestly the karangan topic were damn boring..there were only three topic to choose and i was like..oh god..the topics so damn boring..had no choice..so chose one lor! and i tink i out of point..haha..in the end i did not know wat i wrote actuali! weird lar!

so after the mly o level..sat at the canteen and ate b4 gg for sci remedial..came to know tat we had practical test and i was like..wat!? and did not bring any calculator..but its ok..my friend and i shared 1 calculator..i jus love 5N2 alot..we were like so attitude towards teachers and were also notty..haiya! not serius ah! o level coming and no one is worry abt it! haha..

everyone is so into the june holiday,the KL trip and the bangalow thingy! haha..so this week and the last week of school holiday.. i will be gg back to school for remedial..i hope these remedials during the june holiday will help me buck up my studies coz honestly i hate studying now since the day i got my report book! haiz..cant bear to see my marks anymore!

honestly wif my L1R4 points..i cant go anywhere except ITE..no way! its like i wasted my 5 yrs! haiz! so right now need to buck up especially in maths and english! so if anyone out there is gd in especially math...pls pls teach me! i need some help!!

yeah! my bdae is cuming! cant wait! hope to get as many present and suprises!! haha
and hope i can meet duhzcrew agaiN! blueks!

gosh! they gg bintan tmr! have a safe journey k! hehe..don forget to buy me aniting k!

take care!
happy holidays!!

i got a secret to tell..i skipped mdrasah AGAIN today with lysa and nyna..gosh! i noe its a wrong ting to do and i hope it will be the last time i skip mdrash..haha..like real! so we decided to 'hide' at the cdc where u can find alot of interesting place tat can entertain us..well decided to sit at the bowling arena and we were like entering the bowling arena and it was damn quiet..theres no one except for cleaners! hehe..

so sat ard waiting for time to pass..we did a bit of drawing and chatting plus listening to my hp mp3 songs..luckily i charged my hp this morning..hehe..so we were like damn hungry especially me n lysa..we kept talking abt wat foods we craving to eat..nasi ayam,mee hoon soto,roti prata planta,nasi goreng seafood,waffle..haha..

so now im back here blogging..pretend tat nthg happened..mum thgt i really went to mdrsah today..so mum if you reading this..so sowie..had no choice..u made me do all those stupid and reckless thingy..i jus cant be bother no more..how i wish you cud jus keep quiet and understand my feelings for the past 17 yrs im wif you..if i were to count on dad..he will always think hes the only one who is right..i cant bear to see how he treated you all this while!

so last night my dad wanted to hav a talk wif me n adek..and mum was present too but dad did all the talking..he talked abt our results and behaviour..he seem upset abt my results and adek's behaviour in school..gosh! cant take this anymore..he asked me whether i agree abt they getting me a tuition and as you noe..my last yr tuition was a disaster..the tutor kept having family prblems and cant hav any decent tuition wif me n adek..so since then..i hate having tuition!

so told them i did not want any tuition and dad asked me wat i want then to improve my maths n english..i just kept quiet coz i noe wateva i said you wont agree..so in the end..i jus told them tat i go along wif their decision in getting me a tution and guess wat ma dad said..he said wat for go tuition if you don like..its like wat for do sumting if u not happy wif it..well dad..all this while i don like mum n ur decision in getting me a tution,mendaki or wateva tat i don really like but u still go along wif it..haiz..guess they still don understand wat their own child wants!!

so tmr is my mly o level and few more months..my o level will start..my aim right now is to study hard..study real hard and do my veri best for my o level and show them i really can do..all i need is my own confidence and i jus hav to believe tat i can do! yes i can do!! i will make it to poly and take my dream course!

all the way!

PTI today sux alot..its parent teacher interaction..so my parents came to school ard 10am and waited for them in class..so my parents arrived early and we were the first to go..so mdm shafiee showed them the results and cant believed i pass only two subjects..which are dnt and mly and my L1R4 points are 33 and mdm shafiee said i cant go anywhere except ite..so its like if i go ite next yr..it jus a waste of time..

so mum was like telling her tat i jus love chatting and use the computer everyday instead of studying..and mum kept saying tat i hav a guy coz i chat evryday..duh! and mdm shafiee asked me whether i hav a guy and i was like..wat? no lar..i only chat wif my friends such as ija,maan..as for dad he said dh jumpa kat skola pon nk chat at home..fuck lar..i cant use the house phone,my own hp to sms and its like how to contact wif my friends..so msn is the better choice for me to contact my friends since i cant sms or use the house phone..like fuck seh..and dad told mdm shafiee tat i did not study and use too much of the computer as he did not see me study at all!! fuck!! ane tk nmpk..u always watch tv,sleep,eat,werk,lpk at kedai kopi..wen i wanna study till late night..u ask me to sleep!! argh!

helo!! i did study ok..after skol till night..seriusly i cant said aniting jus now..i was like holding back my tears..its not like i cried becoz i failed ..its like they accused me and were against me..and i cant really looked into mdm shafiee's eyes when she talk to me coz tears was abt to fall..it hurts alot..

went home alone as parents had to go pasar and guess wat..i cried in the bus coz it really hurts me alot..honestly..i did not did well coz i hav no one to teach me and mum,dad,bro..they were always werking and i hav to stay at home all alone..i feel alone n lonely! sumtimes i jus wanna run away and nvr come back!

gosh! ive been a gd and obedient daughter since 17yrs and i nvr rude to them or scolded them when they scolded me..i just kept to myself and cried all alone in a dark corner where no one can see me cry..ape lagi drg nak from me? i listen to them and went out wif them whenever they wanna go out..everyting i did was for their sake! and now..they cant seem to understand my feelings..guess im still weak in expressing my feelings to them..well i jus cant be bother anymore! life sux when u live wif family tat cant understand you! trust me!

so right now..i jus hav to buck up and no more computer for me..but i promise i will continue to blog whenever im free..so jus keep tagging! im gonna study hard and do well in my next exam especially o level! yeah! i can do it!!

she still breathing
but her heart cant seem to function anymore
haiz!

2007 house champion?
JUPITER of cos!

today was the hottest day..as usual every thursday..had to reach school at ard 8am..morning assembly was damn hot and everyone was searching for a better and cold place to avoid the sun from shinning on us..so most of them were like sitting ard my class but sadly the sun was shinning at our place and gosh! we were sweating like hell..serius! damn hot..if i were to put a jar jus below my cute face..i tink it will filled up to half of the jar! serius..it was damn hot!

had PE today and it was fun..decided to play captain's ball and only mly guys played wif us,the girls..so iskandar was like..k ah set..boys v.s gerls and it was like..all the girls in my class vs abt 6 boys only..but then it was not competitive at all as the girls were like not into sports..so ija and me decided to join the boys team and it was great! iskandar was like standing at the middle and guess wat..he jus had to throw a high ball and our 'goalkeeper's job was to catch it..well hes a tall guy u noe and our PE teacher who is a joker told iskandar it was not counted..he shud either passed the ball to his mates or threw the ball closer to the 'goalkeeper' haiya..our PE teacher is so like duh but hes fun..easy to joke ard actuali!

had poly career talk today..the only poly tat interest me were the ngee ann,nanyang,singapore poly..i tink im gg either ngee ann or singapore poly..well took all the poly brochers and came across these courses..film&media studies..film,sound&video..audio-visual technology..these are the three courses tat i interested in but then my dnt teacher was like..huh..not related seh..its like i took dnt in secondary school and when im gg poly i decided to choose either one of the three courses tat i mentioned above..not related to dnt at all..gosh! wat shud i do? shud i follow my heart or listen to all other people's advice? argh! if im into electronics or engineering..then i might be choosing computer engeering mayb! so if any of ur computer got any problems..jus contact me..hehe

so ard july..i must decide which courses and poly i shud go and sign up using the DPA thingy..its like..u sign up and write the course and poly tat u hav decide..this DPA thingy is all abt getting a place in the course of our choice ahead of our peers even b4 our o level! cool right! its a great opportunity u noe! well i don hav the talent in film,sound n media thingy..wat if i sign up for either the three courses i mentioned above and get rejected..gsh! hav to make my mind up now!

tmr is the last day of school b4 june holidays!! have fun k! enjoy!
but theres one thing tat u peeps shud not forget!
its my..
17th BDAE!
wow!

take care

damn! my feets are aching from those walking and running! haiz so damn tired and weak!
had another MT intensive today and we had to do mock paper from other school and it was from chung cheng High School (yishun) seriusly the paper was damn difficult and i had to read over and over again to understand its comprehension..plus everyone were shivering..you peeps must be thinking why were we shivering in cold when it was a hot and sunny day today..well asked urself for the answers..haha

had 4X100m today and gosh one of my team members backed out for some stupid reason and luckily we had a replacement but then it turned out bad! well i decided to become the 3rd runner as im gd at the curve lane instead of the straight lane..so we had some changes gg on btw the first and last runner..so in the end we agreed! i really tried my best to beat my track members as they were also the 3rd runner in the team..but then my 4th runner who was the replacemnt did quite badly actuali..she was like not running at all and had small steps instead of opening her legs! haiz! my team lost! wat a day!

so went gym wif ija again today..and tis time we did alot of the items especially focusing on our stomach and abs ah..so we did check our weight b4 doing the trackmill and im jus 1-2kg heavier than ija..tats ok..so we did the running and all the items tat focus on our stomach and checked our weight again..and gosh! my weight and ija were the same..thank GOD! haha..

well u noe wat..when ija lose abt 1kg..i will also lose 1 kg..its like we always together ah..sometimes we hav the same weight ah..kinda strange actuali coz we live differently and i donnoe wat she eating or been doing ah! so its like..haiya..strange i shud said! haha..it cant be explained actuali! its all in the mind you noe! duh! hehe..well ija and me are quite close now..we did share same habits and dreams actuali..to me..we were like sisters coz we think alike..she noe wat am i tinking and i noe wat is she thinking! cool!..

so we walked home and we were like dreaming abt our future ah..we decided to take car instead of motor in the future and we plan like we were put speaker..lights at night..and ija was damn into it..and i was like..wow! cool! why don wen we get marry later..we use cars to escort instead of motor..lets be different! and we both agreed! seriusly jus now..kite byk berangan tau! if you peeps were to be with us jus now..u peeps gonna think tat we are crazy abt all those things tat we mention..well nothing is impossible right! hehe..we jus need to study hard so tat we hav a better future and get wat we want! tats all!

gosh! im back home with only my grandma and lil brother again! jus don like to be at home! theres nothing at all! its like the house had been abandoned for a long time..so everytime i reach home,there will be no one at home and i will look stupid n idiot..roaming the whole house..searching for don noe wat! tats my usual routine lor..i just cant keep still and will go to the kitchen every minutes and donnoe wat to do! im gg crazy! tats why i like to spend my time outdoors wif friends!

so got to stop here..my feets are aching now..wanna hav a cold bath and mayb massage my feets and legs to loosen up my muscle! and theres a career talk tmr..haiz..its gonna be a boring day again! pity me!

take care!

final answer to the KL trip wif schools is still a NO! gosh why cant my parents understand me for once? why cant they make me happy for once mayb..guess im still a kid and im under the parents control..im not a cricket in the box,my myself determine my destiny!

gosh! today was damn sleepy and tired..had MT intensive from morning till our recess and we learned alot actually..we learned abt how to ans the close passage and learn the different btw sifat and sikap..in btween the studying..we joked ard especially the boys..well they sumtimes get notty in certain things which most of you wont want to hear abt it..

so there was this time we had to make a two werd tat are fixed ah..for e.g mengayuh basikal..theres no other thing or object tat can use the werd mengayuh right?! so we had to think of one..ija and me had no idea and we skipped to the next person and yazier and imran gave 'gongcang botol' something like that ah..so we laughed as we got a dirty thinking..hehe..and maan really liked it..so ms lizah did not accept thier ans as there were other things or objects tat can be use with the werd 'gongcang' so we laughed and asked her wat other objects or thing..we were like waiting for her to say 'tat thing' u noe..tat thing..haha..

so iskandar was like..isk..maan suka seh..kaunye kecik lar..tk leh 'gongcang'..ms lizah did laughed too coz mayb she knew wat we were tinking abt and we were liked..wat? isk..but den everyone burst into laughters..evryone was sporting actually..the sec 4 express and sec 5..cool!

actuali today was the 4X100m race and was held at the jrg west stadium..went there wif ija but halfway there..mdm rohimah came out of the car and told the boys tat the race had been cancelled..walao! semangat already and cancelled! wtf! but then ija and me decided to go gym instead..so we did the trackmill and focus on our stomach muscle..well the part where u can get pacs..haha..

so damn tired now..so tonite gonna slip early as tmr there will be another MT intensive..haiz..gonna be a boring day ever! but wat to do..28 MAY mly o level already..no more time! yeah! gonna do my veri best!

take care!

i did saw him today
but...

Happy Bdae Darren!

well my thighs were aching since yesterday..went to the gym and did the trackmill for abt 20 minutes and my head still spinning..well u noe when u run on the trackmill and when u finish running..u will feel as if u were floating in the air and u will walk like a drunk person! haha..

so watched soccer match yesterday with siblings and gosh! home united won! yeah! but then indra injured during the first half..pity him..hur hur..haha..the secnd goal was scored by Shahril! wow! it was his first goal in the season! he was damn happy! he was jus in front of the goalpost when the ball slipped off the oppenent's goalkeeper's hands..so not wasting any time and he kicked the ball in! yeah! but then he changed his hairstyle!

so yesterday showed my mum the form abt gg to KL with the gy and homec students..ms amy chong decided to open it to HY students since there were many seats left i guess..its from 1st june to 4th june but it seems my parents wont allowed me coz they kept asking me why shud i go since theres nthg i can learn from there..well u noe all the activities and places tat they will be gg..got to do with gy n homec subjects..but then i took hy instead of gy!

well i heard my aunts an cousins will be gg Bintan on the 25th may to 4th june..cool seh..my famili? i donnoe whether my family will be gg..so since my parents not telling me whther we will be gg Bintan with them or the worst is not gg at all with them..i might as well go KL wif my schools and enjoy!! right?

june holiday are coming soon and there will be many activities gg on..the graduating classes hav to come back for lesson on the first and last week of the june holiday..and abt the KL or Bintan trip wif friends and family and theres one more thing..the bangalow thingy! which my classmates and mdm shafiee had planned..i still hav not tell my parents abt it!

jus waiting for the rite time i guess..! hopefully i can go since it will be on my bdae..its from 6th june to 8th june..mum,dad pls make my bdae this yr memorable by letting me to the bangalow thingy! pls!

and 1 more thing..from next week on till the Mly o-level..there will be a malay lessons till my recess time so it will be gg to be 8 periods of malay! 8am-11.10am oh gosh do we really need to do this? well 28 MAY..it will be our MLY O LEVEL! so i hav to do it well so tat i wont be taking the paper again and waste my parents' money. wish me luck!

so till here then
if u peeps wanna ask me out on june holiday
pls tell me asap!
im so damn booked this june holidays!

take care!

"eh aku rasa cam tk kat skola seh" thats wat fifie said during the morning assembly..haha..well we had three days off..did not have to go to school..how cool can it be right! so today we r back in school and we seriusly had fun today and at the same time quite unhappy with our results..

i failed my sci and math badly..and im serious damn not happy abt it and same time worried for my next exam especially the O level..gosh! i passed my malay and not so tat gd actuali..jus need to buck up a bit and as for my english i jus passed..haiz..if my conduct continue like this den the money tat ma parents paid for ma o level will be wasted and as for my future? hanya allah sahaja yang tahu!

so lets not talk abt the results..its over..we cant turn back the time and re-do it all over again..its my fault actuali for not studying! seriusly i regretted! and as usual SEL period mdm shafiee will talk abt the results and our future..so she put abit of humor jus to like motivate us..well mdm shafiee..don worry..we will always remember ur advice!

well the best n funny part for today was the last period..mr koh was the teacher for the last period..so he gave us the phy paper and we checked it as usual and he felt kinda disappointed and sad abt our results but then in the end he said " don take this failure seriusly..doesnt mean u fail now, u will fail forever.."

so he left after taking back the paper..and some of us included me..decided to go home first since there was no teacher and its only abt 5 mins to bell ring..so some of them went off first with confidence tat they will not be caught by any teacher ah..so they giggled their way out from the classroom..i waited for ija outside the classroom and suddenly..we saw the first grp tat decided to went off first came back running..looking damn like idiots! oops!

so i n ija were damn panicked and quickly ran back to the classroom and closed the door not knowing wat were gg on actuali..and we were like damn panicked n scared seh..and at the same time laughing! so we all quickly went to our seats and act innocent..and mr koh came back and scolded us! haha..while he was scolding us..we were like holding back our laughters as our damn stupid behaviours looked kinda childish actuali! haha..

well the funny part was tat..we bravely marched out of the class like soldiers and in the end we retreat as if there were airplanes dropping bombs on us! haiya..how to defend the country if we were to behave like this!? alamak!

so now since there is no cca today..decided to go gym with friends..!
so nyna..if u reading this..say NO to hunger!!
just eat a balanced diet meal and excersice more k!
im so damn worried to see u in tat state! looking so skinny!..
EAT MORE PLS!

take care!

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

well today i really had a gd times gg out wif the girls..kinda cool actually..its been a long tyme we went out together..they decided to go watch movie ,spiderman 3..the movie i've been wanting to watch..so they bought the tickets and popcorn..and the worst part tat made me wanna sleep was tat the movie started damn late..there were many advertisments and came across this movie harry porter and pirates of the caribbean..kinda cool seh..well girls..next movie outing k..haha..look forward for it..hehe

spiderman 3 were cool,action,hilarious and sad..peter parker was damn funny..harry was damn cute too..haha..well peter parker really looked like one of the gd charlotte u noe wen he became the bad guy..and really hated the venom..haiz..so bad n cruel!

well wished i was MJ..shes a lucky woman uh..she has a boyfriend who is a spiderman and the best part was when peter parker made a web btw the trees and both MJ and him watched the shooting stars..it was damn romantic..how i wish he cud do the same too! but sadly one of the gd guys died.

ate long john after that..we shared our foods..oh gosh..the girls really gd in gossip ah..i cant stop thinking and laughing abt the story berliana told us..i noe we noe public donnoe..kinda scary actuali..thanks for ija tat i had top up for his pp8 and wishing he will msg me today wen he noes his pp8 had been top up..well i guess im wrong..he did not even replied my msg at all..thanks alot boy!

well ija kept asking me who is the person is..well i cant really tell her..actually i cant bring myself to tell her when i myself not sure of him..so i told her hes jus someone special..and ija was so swit jus now wen she said..i cant be too generous to guys coz she don want me to be hurt..and i felt touched by her werds..well told her ive been hurt once by him..and she was like..ya i noe but den i don want u to be hurt again! gosh..shes really a gd friend..thanks ija..will always remember ur advice!

dont love me for fun,boy
let me be the one
love me for a reason
let the reason be love

k i decides to update my blog now instead of doing it later ard 5pm onwards..so today i did not go to skol..i skipped school and mum does not noe abt it..haha..naah! im jus kidding..today..i hav no paper..yesterday was ma last paper,it was math paper two and i jus don care abt it anymore..at last mid yr is over..enjoy? naah..tis yr is ma important yr for me and the graduating classes..we hav to show ms ho tat tis yr batch..we gonna do damn well since the last yr batch did pretty badly..haha..kwang3..well ms ho did gave us a special holiday for us the boonlayians on thur and it did stated tat the last yr o level did pretty well and most went to JC and Poly..

well to me its all bullshit..i heard tat most of them cant get into the Poly and ended in ITE instead..haiya..they either failed their english or math or both i guess..so right now..im more worried abt ma math n english..if i don pass both..well sayonara poly and ma dream course..hurhur..

well honestly..kinda miss him although we did not talk at all yesterday..i jus don noe wat to talk abt..its different now..it seems like i don hav many things to talk abt and i tink he feel the same too..haiz..hes getting on my nerves actuali..he seem different now..well we used to talk alot and joked ard where he will alwasy tickle me wen i did not lyn him coz i was plain lazy to lyn his lame jokes..haha

but den hes a different person right now..i jus could not figure out wats wrong with him..how i wish he cud said..im sorry for leaving u all alone tis awhile and not contacting you..u noe sumting like making me happy and getting the trust back..but den it looks like evriting has change!

still waiitng for his reply

k jus go back and im damn sleepy..had math paper 2 today and guess wat..i did not do much..i jus don care anymore..haiz..its like each qns there are (a),(b),(c),(d) and i only did (a) and (b)..it looks like i can say gdbye to Poly uh..i donnoe wats wrong wif me now..i seem to lose interest in studies..oh gosh! help me..i want to get back ma old me..who always study and never give up!

well after paper..went to al-azhar to eat wif ma cuzzin and i reached dere first and had to wait to them for abt 15-30 mins i guess..damn late seh..so as i was waiting for them..i jus had tis feeling tat he will followed too since ma sis tag along as well..so it was true..he tag along and i was damn shocked n angry at the same tyme..kept wondering where did he go all this while..leaving me alone..wen i need a shoulder to cry on..

so salam ma aunt as she werk dere and ordered our foods..we chat n joked ard..after finished eating..well sis decided to go home as she was sleepy..so i went to lysa hs as i wanted to get sumting at her hs..he tag along as well..

so after taking the things tat ma mum asked to..lysa send us off to the bus stop..took the bus..sat at the back..and we both did not tok to each other..he seems not to care abt me anymore..but luckily im a patient person (sumtimes) haha..so heck care abt each other and he was like putting a maximum volume of his hp..and everyone in the bus could heard it..so tis indian smelly guy was looking back at us and i told him to pelan kan and pull his hand to take his hp and he was srtonger than me..he was damn stubborn..so i ignored him..all the way to the interchge..we don tok..

upon reaching the interchge..he walked all alone leaving me bhind..and i was like..wtf? if u don care abt me no more or like me jus say..i can jus disappear from ur life..so i jus kept quiet and jus followd him from bhind..haiz..stress!!

does he noe how much she misses him
how much she loves him
but it seems like he don care anymore
sumtimes she really want to give up
but bcoz she really loves him
she bear with the pain
well who cares anyway!?

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

i did not bought aniting for mum as usual..i was waiting for ma lil bro to bought something and i jus sign it but den tis yr..i guess ma lil bro had forget all abt it..haiz and also i don hav the courage to say happy mother's day..so im here to say happy mother's day mum! thanks for all the care and concern u had gave me all these past 16 yrs..

my head still spinning..all because of the vortex ride i took on friday night..oh gosh..as usual..went to mdrsah..cant really woke up in the morning..my head was damn heavy and don want to tell my mum abt it coz confirmed she will said "jgn mengada-ngada.." haha..well lagipon today is mother's day..haha..but wat got to do with that? duh-uh!

so was damn sleepy at mdrsah..decided to take a short nap..but lucky the uztazah for the first period was fun..she jokes ard and i don felt sleepy anymore..haha..but den uztad for the second period was late for his lesson so another uztad came into class and gave us some qns to do..after that..the second period uztad came in and he was dman emotional u noe..he scolded the latecomers..saying those latecomers..purposely came late..always the same excuses..woke up late,the bus late and so for..wtf..so he was like emotional ah..scolded us and lecture us..after tat..he went out w/o teaching us..coz he wasted his tyme lecturing us..hehe..too bad..we don like you..everi lesson..talk abt marriage..well we noe its for our own gd ah..to learn the types of marriage and the person we want to marry..but at our age..we are not interested! true? who agree wif me? anyone? raise ur hand! haha

lysa told me abt her mum n ma dad's elder sister..our famili looked fun but actuali its kinda complicated actuali..here it goes..well lysa' mum had tis dream tat she was in mekah eh? and she dreamt tat she will married tis particular guy..(her dad dh meninggal) so her mum woke up and prayed to GOD tat what she dreamt will not come true..in the end..it came true actuali..oh gosh! do all dreams come true? im so scared!

next was ma dad' elder sister..she married her own uncle..im so like..huh? serius? cool..haha..and the relationship btw her husband n our atuk is the same as me n lysa..cuzzin..oh gosh! im so damn suprised..isnt tat great..! its like i married to lysa' dad..hehe..no way! haha..
cool seh..thanks for telling me lysa..now i noe..anymore suprise for me lysa? any story abt our aunts? uncle? grandparents? haha

k 1 more paper to go and mir yr will end..haha..cant wait! im so stress up wif all the stdying..honestly..i hate to study..but no choice..wanna pass and show ma parents tat i can do it..chey..so monday is math paper 2..so got to stop it..hav to study!
yeah

take care!

She misses Him
She Still Love Him
She Always Wonder When She Will Get To Meet Him Again
Everything That She Do Reminds Her Of Him
She MISS Him

FUN FAIR AT WDLS
CLOSED ON THE 27 MAY

well i had many story to share..many funny things happend tis past mid yr weeks..well i cant seem to post anitiing on ma new blog..so now im using ma old blogger..so its temporary k..but jus keep tagging k..

well wednesday..i had english and mly paper 1..had difficulties in doing both paper..so im ready to see ma result slip..haha..im gonna fail! yahoo! duh..theres one werd tat i had to make a sentence wif..its landasan and i heard abt it b4..some sort like landasan keretapi..so with confidence..i wrote " kita harus berdiri dia blknag garisan kuning biler berdiri di landasan keretapi! haha...wat the hell..its track..MRT railway track..hanis hanis..u r making fool of urself..shit!

so after both paper..ate roti prata at frontier as usual..tat feena is so loving that roti prata at the frontier..trust me..go n try..its nice n crispy..different from the kedai kopi..haha..serius..its worth it u noe although its expensive..so we ate and joked as usual and feena was like cutting the roti prata into half and she said..heart-broken! well..in the end we ordered another roti prata which made us ate 3 roti prata in total..oh gosh..tat fucking feena lar! she influenced me n ija to buy another roti prata..haiz..she nvr get sick of eating roti prata..!

so thursday i had hy paper..i did studied abt cold war coz teacher said konperm come out..so stuyd like hell and i managed to do the structured essay but the source based i had trouble doing it..oh gosh! there goes ma combined humanities..i really2 want to pass ma combined humanities..actuali im not into combined humanities except tat i don like remembering things..the date,yr and names of the dead!

k peeps..take care
gd luck for the mid yr!

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