♥ Tuesday, July 31, 2007 ♥
jus finished eating mee goreng tat mum cooked for me to bring to to school. kinda hungry actuali. only ate during recess. no breakfast b4 gg skol and no time for lunch becoz of remedial. so today it was my turn to bring bekal to school. mum cooked mee goreng and it was damn oily but nice. haha. so i ate again when i reached home today.
well met fatin otw to the ava room for the first period and thanks for the late bdae gift. haha. i really like it. thanks a million time. attched it onto my handphone. at last my handphone gets its own name. which is HANIS. haha. so thanks once again!
PE was cool. really like PE alot since we were damn close to one another. as usual b4 sitting down into our grps, i will be the playful monkey! cant sit down and likes wandering ard, disturbing ppl. so wat i did today was tat i pulled feena's shorts and gosh! they all saw it.
so today shitan's team teached us the basics of basketball. teamed up with the usual 6 and we had a symbol tat we belong to the same grp. for e.g gangster have its own grp name and symbol right. so we did a symbol onto our palm. (see pic) well it started when i gave weiyang a jokes tat had to write something onto his palm. so from there we draw something on each other palms. and now the ink wont came off. haha.
math period was damn sleepy. three periods. so make a bet with ija tat whoever sleep and not paying attention will buy chcos. if ija sleep she must buy me a kitkat whereas if i sleep i must buy chco for her too. haha.
well weiyang know abt them too. great. weiyang asked me out on sat to catch a movie jus to disturb them as we knew abt the sat date. haha.
classmates kept bullying me. gosh! coz im the smallest. haiya. so kept giving shitan warning tat if he tried to bully me again, i will not come to school again. coz i don want to be bully again! hmph! haha. the disadvantage of being small uh. well abt the skit thingy on teacher's day..i tink its cancel. hurhur!
yeah! today is the last day of ngaji! at last. im free but theres still tuition. kept telling mum tuition did not work out for me and she ignored me. gosh! mum, if u want to pass my o level.. u got to listen to me mum! tuition is jus giving us worksheets and we hav to do it and only ask if we don understand. theres not studying like wat the normal school does. argh!
Now I know your not a fairytale.
& dreams were meant for sleeping
♥ Monday, July 30, 2007 ♥
k jus reached home. school was normal today. nothing exciting happening today. kinda bored i shud said as mdm shafiee did not come to school. free period for english and reading lesson as mr singh did not come to school today. must be sick. haha. like real. PE was so like duh. played dodgeball and kinda bored as we were not properly organised. its all becoz of us for not listening to our friends-in-charge. gosh. if only we listened to them and i assure we gonna have fun. but its ok. theres still tomorrow and its gonna be shi tan's team. told them to play dog and bone but we decided to change it into human and ball. haha.so ija brought spagetti today. nice. its been a long time i ate spagetti. well my mum is not gd in cooking spagetti. and honestly i did not like my mum's spagetti. sshh. don tell her. haha. and guess wat i pass my chemistry test. but its only a class test. gosh. till now i haven prepared for my prelim exam and even o level.im dead!went JP today as mum asked me to buy something at popular. ija and me had make a decision tat we wont buy anything when we reached JP. so the purpose of gg JP is only to go popular and went home straight. but after buying some stickers and wat ma mum told me to buy..the card holder thingy, in the end we spent some money on food. marshmallows and end up eating at banquet. haha. ija! ija! haha. btw ija don 4get my KIT-KAT!so met up with nyna and handed over my combined file. hope she understand the way i arrange the notes and worksheets. take care of it aite! but photocopy all the notes u want asap k coz im afraid that mrs chan want to check my file one of this days. haha.ok,im so like duh in class. everyone is so into me that they kept bullying me. well tats gd. but quite sad sometimes.aww. haha imagine u did not do anything and everyone said ur name. gosh. still remember at the chalet when iskandar threw a water bomb onto weiyang and everyone said i was the bully. gosh. thinking abt it, it does made me laugh! haha. other than that, theres once during dnt..darren was damn cold as he was sick and everyone was saying tat i told the aircon remote when actuali it was feena. omg! i shud gave myself a name Hanis 'The Victim'. and assembly today theres a performance. shitan and darren(1) kept shouting ma name as the performers are looking for a volunteer to try the malay instruments. and i threatened them tat if i was asked to come up the stage, i will not talk to the whole class. and they had the cheek to laugh at me when im serius! bluek!you should never broad over something you cannot get.don’t waste your time feeling sad.if you are, do something to put a smile on your faceI mean what’s the use of wanting something so badly that in the end when you don’t get what you want, you feel sad.someone said this and i totally agree on it. and so i decided to move on
♥ Sunday, July 29, 2007 ♥









jus woke up from my afternoon seh.well only sunday i have the chance of afternoon sleep as weekdays i will be busy with my school, tuition and religious class. gosh. so damn tired. luckily brother fetched me home today after mdrasah and we were caught in the rain, we found ourselves a void deck and waited for the rain to stop. plus i was damn freezing cold.
well yesterday i really had fun. its been a long time i had bbq with my cousins and aunts. so we had bbq yesterday at bukit batok CSC. it was an advance bdae for adek nor. way to fast for the advance. adek nor's bdae is on the 2nd august but her mum did her advance on 28 july. haha.
other than bbq, some of us went for a swimming. and the water was freezing cold. the best part was that we wanted to play the slide tower when the little boys went up and theres no water on the slide. haha. how are they suppose to slide down without water. in the end told one of the lifeguard and we slide down one by one as we only rented 1 float. but the second time, the little boys slide down without a float and it looked kinda funny with them using their hands pushing themselves down the slide. gosh.
we took alot of pics and gosh we did laugh alot. ira was there too. lil cuzzin' friend. thanks for cuming ira. and not only that, everyone is so obssesed with beautiful girls song. their ringtones are all the same. haha. but...while we were having fun, grandma saw something.
when i reached home yesterday, mum told us that grandma saw something that we don expect to see on the bbq. she saw someone flying on the tree jus above the bbq pit but lysa told me grandma saw someone sitting on the tree. gosh. luckily grandma or aunts did not tell us abt it when were still there.
As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility.
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me.
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done.
And things that have not occurred yet.
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for.
♥ Friday, July 27, 2007 ♥

hello :)
b4 i start my post i got a qns to ask and hope u give me ur opinions abt it.
do friends, i mean close friends make sacrifices for his/her other close friends? as in the subject of love.
well ija tell me to update my blog coz shes kinda bored. so by reading my blog she wont feel bored. chey..like real. ija, u shud read my blog sooner actuali. so you know all the things ard me. so nvm. jus glad tat u read ma blog and tag me.
so today brought bekal to school. well its ma turn today as yesterday it was feena's turn. and i brought nasi goreng. mum cooked it and its really nice. yum yum. shud try it one day. had MT test today. gosh the bina ayat was damn difficult coz i don understand a single thing. and i asked nurul for its meaning. luckily she was there to give me the meaning. thanks friend.
so SEL period was super cool. since everyone wasnt ready for the skit, my team decided to do the skit first. so our title was the stress management. weiyang did the most contributions on the storyline. thanks. so i was the narrator. and they did act really gd. the funny part was tat we used a measuring tape for the belt and mirdza wanna it to name as his 'gucci' belt. omg.
the storyline was tat mirdza, the father is an alcholic and feena, the daughter stress with studies and relationship. so one night mirdza came home drunk, lashed his 'gucci' belt which is the measuring tape and start to beat feena. and so on.
so today wasnt in a gd mood ah. donnoe why. mayb its raining. so today two of my classmates brought along a gun oh oh. haha. but its fake. duh-uh. haha. so everyone were afraid of it. i mean when someone aim the gun at you. will u be afraid? haha.
so i tink today my post is damn long. sowie if sometimes my post make u wanna sleep. well tats the point actuali. is to make u feel sleepy so tat u can hav a rest and sleep. naah. jus kidding. keep reading my blog k. and pls tag me. thanks.
"Friendship is delicate as a glass,
once broken it can be fixed
but there will always be cracks"
♥ Thursday, July 26, 2007 ♥
b4 i start my new post abt today, lets refresh back to last night. well met up with ija and roohee after school. gosh i had fun. its been a long time i met roohee. so we joked ard as we walked home. ija and roohee kept guessing wats my block no. and roohee said a blok no. confidently when actuali it was wrong. naah, its ok. actuali i also donnoe their blok no. not to forget, my lil brother played a prank on me yesterday night and i nearly die. chey. die seh. like real. well i was eating ard 10pm. and i was damn thirsty and asked my lil brother to take for me water. so he took out a bottle from the fridge containing a green liquid. he said it was banana syrup ah. and next he said he wanted some so he took a cup but did not pour the water in his cup.as i was damn thirsty, i took the bottle and drank the water, not knowing wat water was tat. and omg. it wasnt drinking water. it was kind of syrup tat shud be eaten with one type of food ah. how to describe it eh. hmm..will ask my mum abt teh syrup thingy. and i quickly went to the sink and guggle some neWater from the tap. gosh. it tasted so damn thick and yucks.so today school was ok. went with shazlin. and told her all abt it. and she was like. "aww. u willing to sacrifice? " well shazlin..sometimes making scarifice makes people happy except for the one who makes the scarifices. ok friend.nthg much happend. ija and me took a walk to the canteen during the second period of dnt. cant believed tat no one sat at our place during the first recess. haha. cool. so skipped 1 period of dnt. actuali no skipped ah. its just tat we had finished our artefacts. and ntg to do. so went canteen.MT lesson today damn relaxed ah. we had to create an online website. as in online shopping website. so ija n me paired up and came of this website. http://ijAnisUNIK.com.sg. pls don try to clik on this website coz it does not exist. haha. nice right. Wanting you,to be wanting me.No that ain't no way to be.How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over..Hurt at first, a little bit,but now I'm so over.
♥ Wednesday, July 25, 2007 ♥
today the teachers had a photo-taking session. wish i was the photographer instead. honestly i feel really jealous when someone own a real and professional camera as in nikon camera. gosh. wish i hav one soon. let say coming soon. haha.all the teachers did dress up today. haha. and some teachers were cute. aww. haha. gatal. so this yr, we as a class are gg to do something for national day and teacher's day. lets not talk abt national day coz we hav not know wat we gg to do yet. jus wait and see. its gonna be great and different.
so teacher's day. hmm. actuali feena wanna sing on teacher's day but after reading the conditions as in wat can we do on teacher's day such as singing, dancing and a skit. so we came up of an idea tat we as a class will be doing a skit. its gonna be fun and funny. hope we can do the skit and its gonna be a suprise to the teachers especially the teachers who taught us all this while.
so had dnt remedial. actuali not a remedial jus a touch up and finishing our artefacts. did a last minute touch up. hope it still works like i wanted it to. haha. so after tat lpk2 at dnt room. gosh i did not know tat dnt room could be soo cold. but it was a perfect place to hang ard with friends after doing our dnt. stress seh.
sadly i cant join roohee and ija tonight. they gg studying. but i had tuition tonight. dammit. its gonna be bored. worksheet after worksheet, qns after qns. haiz. feel like quiting as the tuition doesnt seem to help me at all. mummy..can i quit?
brother's coming home soon from camp. gotta save some money as i promised him tat i will treat him something when he got to know tat granny gave me 10 bucks. he said anything and im going to buy him 'anything'. hehe. and not only tat theres bbq on this cuming sat with cousins plus a mly dance performance by our blss malay dancers. hope i can ask my brother to bring me there first b4 gg for the bbq.
haiz, had a serius muscle and body ache. well all becoz i did not warm up properly for the badminton game we had yesterday. mummy, pls urat my body for me. haha.
its amazing, when two strangers become friends.but sad, when two friends become strangers.
♥ Tuesday, July 24, 2007 ♥
today i really hav no mood. i donnoe why i hav this change of mood. well was lazy to go to school. jus plain lazy to school again. iskandar and azwan had not been coming to school for abt 1 week plus. gosh im so sowie for them. hope nthg happend to them. really care abt them. like i said b4, o-level is abt two more mths. hope they are alright. so played badminton today for PE. teamed up with sakinah v.s feena and ija. gosh. the two shorties. it was really fun actuali. sakinah is a gd team mates. and she was damn funny plus i had to do all the running. hmph! well playing badmintion did make me forget my problems and stress. intend not to talk to him but did talk to him in the end.as usual ija and i had our doubts. but sometimes we managed to overcome some certain problems and discuss it together. but i will make sure we hav a long lasting friendships. insyaallah. so mirdza used my skirt and sweater and did a stupid but humorous act in class. gosh. was damn cute and bapok. haha. come to me if u wanna see the video.had a tiring day today. right after school there was combined humanities remedial and most of us were damn sleepy so did wash our face. im still waiting for ija's artefact to be use in school. its cool actuali. her artefact can detect whether u r sleeping on the table or u r alert. so if the artefact cant detect ur body (not siting up straight but sleeping on the table instead) a water will splash on us. cool.so after tat had math remedial. wasnt paying attention as usual. well wat to do, sat bside my 2 kali lima dol friend, ija. well she had this strange and funny suggestion for ndp theme this yr. our class were discussing of becoming a pirates or fishermans but wat made ija laughed in class alone was tat she kept thinking of us wearing a super heroes costumes, as in spiderman, superman. haha.so planned to watch secrets, a chinese movie. theres jay chou acting on tat show. so ija and i decided to watch it as its all abt secrets. mayb the story might be link to us.. you knowthe secrets thingy. we seem to keept secrets from each other. so hope to watch it with her and mayb with my other friends too. dammit. miss them lots. the duhzcrew.The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship.
♥ Monday, July 23, 2007 ♥
gosh. jus reached home. had so much laughing and jokes and now im letting out all the gas out. haha. well today its different. instead of gg home early, i stayed in school and went KFC. so now damn sticky and i need a bath. a cold bath i shud said.so school was ok. as per normal. laugh n jokes is all our class gd at but no studies. o-level is jus abt 2 more mths. gosh. when mr singh told us how many more weeks to go for o-level and my heart was like pumping damn fast coz i hav not start studying yet. ija looked scared too. haha. well friend, no much time left. problems aside, studies come first. no matter wat, we shud try our best and make it to our own choice of poly n courses k. all the best to ya.so watched the lower sec played the captain's ball. and i can said venus n mercury had the potential. they really great u know. but i left when the venus were competiting with the mercury. hope venus win. they damn great. coz they hav the best catcher ever, MUSYA. haha."forget your friends when it comes to crisis" haha. tats wat qurratu said. but i changed it into " forget your friends when it comes to hunger". well qurratu was super hungry and i told her im waiting for my friend first b4 gg off. but she cannot tahan and we went off to kfc with diyanah.I can't explain this feeling. I think about it everyday. And even though i've moved on. It gets so hard to walk away.ija
, keep aside all your problems.all the past relationships.now studies matter the most.we shud study hard and achieve all our dreams.not only tat..move on with your life.no use thinking back abt the past k.btw im sowie to ask you soo much qns jus now.shud not start it at first.im really sowie.and i shud not hav known all ur secrets with him.coz it gonna affect our friendships.so now i tink its better u keep it to urself instead k.
lup ya lots.
♥ Sunday, July 22, 2007 ♥
sunday, the last day of the week. gosh. ntg much to do. well as usual went to religious class today and was super late. plus it was raining. well theres new rules. the change of clothings. haiz. we must wear the proper way as in blouse tat cover our hips to our buttocks and plus we had to wear socks too but we don care much abt the socks. haha.so went to gekpoh to print some of our dnt pics after meeting ija. and i was like nowhere to go for abt 30 minutes. so bought waffle. hehe. and went macdonald for an extra small coke and waited for abt 15-30 minutes b4 getting my pics. gosh. kinda bored actuali. lucikly theres ss textbk tat came me company. haha.
so brother has gone back to camp. lil brother had gone for singing n dance practice with his friends, leaving me,granny,dad and mum at home. done all my hw and will study my math n chem later on as this tues, there will be 3 exams in a day. malay,chemistry and math. gosh! 3 in a row. how uncool can it be.
well nthg much to say actuali. jus listening to the songs on radio and today all songs are in acoustic mode which i loves the most. im jus into acoustic songs. kinda nice actuali. haha..so my number 1 song now is wait for you. so into it. wont get bored listening to it over and over again.
granny gave me 10 bucks as mr lee kuan yew gave her some money.wat money issit? its for the old age money izzit?? think so. so thanks granny. but had to blanje brother as he got to know abt it. and brother jus msg me tat we gonna go outing the next 2 weeks with kak ifa. gonna be great. its my first time tho gg out with him n her. haha. so hope brother meant it.
im sowie i did not talk to you.
well i cant still get over it.
but i will try my best to maintain a gd friendship together.
and be like before. happily like we used to be.
you really understand me the most.
lastly im happy to have u.
lup ya always.
thanks for the kit-kat, friend.
♥ Saturday, July 21, 2007 ♥

gosh cant relax my mind. kept thinking abt yesterday. feeling guilty too. i did not mean to keep it from her but now she knows wats wrong with me. shud i tell? im so in dilemma now. not only tat, another problem came jus this morning, he asked for my help and i agreed to help. well i still treat him as my friend.
since she knew i had problems and the worst part was tat i've been keeping it from her..i jus cant face her once again. i knew it was wrong to keep secrets btw friends. especially our best friend. well u did ur part in telling ur secrets to me abt him and as for me i hav not did my part yet.
u know wat gerl, whenever im with you, i jus wanna tell you the truth but did i tell u? nope. let it be the way it is. im not gg to change anything. lets pretend ntg happen and this gonna be hard for me but it will be better this way. no miserable, no qns playing in our mind and all we shud do is jus be like b4. having fun. joking ard during maths lesson instead of paying attention.
i jus hope tat all this problems and qns tats playing ard in our mind could jus disappear whenever i wake up each morning. and start a new day with a smile. hope so. it jus tat i cant take it no more. like i said, it happen to sudden and i cant seem to face it all alone.
i just want my story to have a happy ending.
& pls don leave me crying.
♥ Friday, July 20, 2007 ♥
ija,
congrats coz u had discovered my blog.
after much thinking jus now, i don mind actuali.
well,actuali i meant to keep it from you for the time being.
im scared tat u discovered one of my secrets.
and i gurantee you,it will affect our friendship.
so im sowie i did not tell you my true feelings on this particular problem.
that i've been keeping from you.
its jus tat i cnt bring myself to tell you yet.
im jus scared. scared of losing you.
mayb like i said, it isnt the right time yet to tell you abt it.
i donnoe if this is personal or wat?
kinda lame actuali. but it hurts me.
seriusly..i jus cant bring myself to tell you.
even here i cant even give u some clue on wats wrong with me.
honestly, im glad tat we had a long friendship together.
i don want to lose a loveable and caring friend like you.
we seems to get along well as each day passes.
well im kinda shocked on ur behaviour at the chalet too.
its like its a sudden happening to me and if you notice,
i did changed my attitude towards you on the day tat you and the rest were caught.
but i kept it to myself. jus pretending to be happy coz i dont want u to worry abt me.
been thinking all alone why u beahviour in tat way? why?
well as you know people who i loves most as in close to me,
always hav this sudden beahviour or attitude tat i don expect to happen.
e.g my brother and wat hurts the most was on my bdae night! u know wat happened right?
gosh!
im sowie.
hanis.
♥ ♥
had 2 hrs of combined humanities class after school. from 2.4opm-4.40pm. gosh! 2 hrs learning on how to ans the source-based qns and the essay qns. tried to keep my both eyes opend. well with the cold weather plus my sweater, it will be the best time to slip with my bosters and pillows. aww. isnt tat great! haha.so school wasnt tat tired today. my throat is so damn irritating. anytime can suffer sore throat. so been coughing and coughing. gonna buy some sweets for ma throat but pls no medicine. SEL period is always the same topic. abt relationship btw parents and friends. sakinah cried when she expressed her true feelings and i was abt omg. im so sowie. kinda pitiful actuali. well everytime mdm shafiee talks abt relationship with parents, i will keep quiet. she did ask us if anyone of us are having a bad terms with our own parents. well i did not dare to admit. at tat moment i really feel hurt. and did wanna cry but hold on to it. actuali i hav a bd terms with ma parents especially my dad. wish i cud tell my problems with mdm shafiee but im jus waiting for the right time.so gonna hav SEL project, we had to make a 'short drama' with our grp. and ur grp had to act abt stress management. well my grp members aredarren,mirdza,weiyang,ija,feena and anis. the usual six. haha. so we plan another chalet after graduation night and i hope it did not happen wat i did not want it to happen. my bdae night wasnt tat fun at the chalet. instead of keeping me accompany, they did sumting out of wat i did not expect. kinda suprised actuali. disappointed i shud said,well since theres another chalet after our grad nite, i seem not to hav the feeling of excitement. coz im scared it will happen again. and i hav to pretend tat nothing of it happen at all. gosh. wat shud i do?
♥ Thursday, July 19, 2007 ♥
just reached home from school. gosh damn tired. today it rained heavily and was damn cold and wet. so almost half of the class took out their socks and shoes and let it dry with the help of the four fans in the class. so went to my dnt lesson without my socks on. felt kinda uncomfortable actuali but wat to do. wanna let it dry. so my dnt artefact hav finished except tat it does not werk like i wanted it. kinda frustrating actuali but teacher said as long as the circuit can werk then its ok. so im finished with it except for a litte touch up. and now focusing on my dnt folio.so got to know o-level is abt 2 mths away and gosh. i have not prepare any notes for all my subjects. and now im freaking out. well yesterday did study with ija at central KFC and we studied chemistry. and we had fun together. well after being together for so long, i realised tat we hav the same habits and we tink alike. kinda amazing actuali but irritating sumtimes. hehe.so had math remedial for 2hrs and had a short nap during the lesson. wat to do. had a busy schdule everyday. remedial after school den no time to hav a afternoon sleep, instead i hav to go either my religious class in the afternoon or tuition at night. is this the way of life? god knows!to me hes different now.does he change for his own good?or does he change for her?
♥ Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ♥
well jus finished watching shooting stars at mediacorp 5. really had fun today in school plus damn tired with all the school work and remedial. kept changing classrooms to go for the next lesson. felt like poly. but poly more worst coz the distance more far than the journey to your next class in secondary. haha.so today P.E. was damn cool. it was kelly's grp turn to teach us P.E. and it was floorball. it was some sort like hockey. so we were divided into two grps of ten. and i did join the right team. we chose yellow for our floorball hockey stick. and we named our grp the 'Yellow-Minded'. haha.so all of us were damn tired after abt 15 mintes of friendly match. we were laughing as we played as we looked like idiots. some of us were not playing floorball but smacking other people's stick. gosh! we were damn like idiots looking and catching for the small ball.we did had fun. we really a great clas actuali. 5n2 really brighten up my day. im so lucky to be in tat class. well ms lee, our chemistry teacher is so into us. shes really like us alot as our bonding as a class are so close togther and honestly im gonna miss them all. so had combined humanities and phy practical today. and was damn hungry as i did not eat anything since i step out of the house. so ate some nasi goreng and breakfast cereals. haha. and honestly my head does not feel gd. its like i felt damn dizzy when i sat too long or stand too long. it feels like ur inside head..izzit my brain? is like swaying from left to right and u tryng to stop it but cant. gonna tell my mum abt it. mayb not enough sleep.well feena's dad is ok now but sadly he suffered from broken hips and swollen jaws.ok everyone's into one song. 'wait for you' by elliot yamin. my fav song for now. its kinda cool. listen to it when you free. that song is kinda hot in radio now."I was just wonderingif you'd come along to hold up my head when my head won't hold on. I'll do the sameif the same is what you want, if not I will go alone."
♥ Monday, July 16, 2007 ♥
well received a shocking news today. feena's dad had a motor accident and hes now in hospital. well we jus had our o level malay listening compre and feena did cry after knowing abt her dad. well we tried to calm her down and told her to think positive. everytings gonna be alright. so the listening compre qns were damn complicated and tricky. luckily i had abt 2-3 wrong ans after comparing and argueing our ans with each other. haha. kinda sleepy actuali. did hav a short nap during the listening. gosh.had ss exam today and did not manage to complete it. imagine doing an exam for abt 45 minutes and the qns required us to write down the ans in a essay format. wasnt happy with my ans. last minute i understood wat the source based said. i flunked it once again.so decided not to do the DPA. donnoe why. haha. jus hav to study hard and make into my course. get to know tat 41 more days to prelim! and i still hav not touch the books to study. mayb will be studying on this fri with iskandar and ija. hope we can teach other wat we know.im still trying to get over it.why can he notice me?
♥ Sunday, July 15, 2007 ♥


Nikon D40x camera

me in shades

pillar of sweaty palms

i did not know my
name was famous.
haha

era farida & khairuddin
at spore expo
how to save a life?
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gonna hav a short post tonight as i hav to get back on my studies. tmr's social studies exam. its abt venice. well cikgu lizah had gone for her honeymoon to venice. kinda cool place i shud said. beautiful and nice.so went to singapore expo today with family and cousins and aunt. its so damn a long journey and i had to stand from jrg east to expo. kinda frustrating as a woman did steal my seat. hmph! but luckily she alighted abt 2 stops after tat. haha.so reached expo and wow! ramai org! and i was like pushing and squeezing thru a grp of big people and i was so small and i cant hardly see where my parents had gone too. so i don care and wat i did was like push ppl ard, squeezing thru them. aunty,nenek,uncle and many more lar.so we did stop to watch suhaimi and gang on the stage. khairuddin and era farida came out and gosh they were damn funny as usual. and theres tis nenek. can say nenek super canggih ah coz wore a sunglasses. dh pandai katekan..haha..and guess wat. she melatah. its like she tk leh terkejut or else she follow wat ppl do.so suhaimi did sumthing to her. suhaimi did a big box and the nenek did stand up as she melatah and suhaimi did some moves and she followed too. the same way suhaimi did. we were like laughing our heart out. shud video it and show u guys.so did not go eat with cousins as tmr theres exam. need to study. so here i am. feeling tired. hope tmr my mood will not affect my exam. hope so. wish me all the best, aite!.
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went to watch harry porter yesterday night with friends. it was fun and cool. the show was great. except tat i dont know some of the people coz i did not watch harry porter from the season 1. haha. poor me. did hav a short nap during the movie as i was damn tired. took neoprints and we did hav a great time togther. thanks gerlz.well had dnt remedial today. had to reach school abt 8am as we had to finish our artecfacts by this week. so i did had some problems and i was damn freaking mad with myself and felt like crying coz i cant really handle stress.and at the same time did not have the mood to go school. so i was like quiet and did not talk a lot plus did not talk to her. well i jus cant get over it. honestly it hurts alot but as her best friend i willing to scarifice. coz sometimes sacrifices is the only way to make everyone happy but not urself.so right now. jus pretend to be happy and jus play along. did not know things gonna happen this way. seriusly don feel like gg to school anymore coz it will like hurts me more. so kept telling myself to keep myself busy and not think of anything coz right now studies matters the most. exams are jus ard the corner.speechless.i don want to know anthing anymorecoz it will hurts me more
♥ Saturday, July 14, 2007 ♥
did not feel gd abt wat mdm shafiee had said. well today she talked abt marriage and parenthood. she told us wats gg around in this world. wats happening to every married couple. so some of friends are sensitive abt it as there might be some family problems in their family and two of my classmates did cry. so actuali what mdm shafiee said was true abt marriage. marrying at the young age. fightings btw each other etc. and all wat she said did hurt me. i mean it did happen to my family.so i was like damn quiet all day as i try to forget the whole story tat mdm shafiee had said abt marriage.only my close relatives knew abt wat happened to my beloved brother. its like u see me quite a cheerful girl and happy-go-lucky person but actuali theres so much problems in my family. all we hav to do right now is study real hard. parents worked really hard to pay for our education, bills and many more. and the only way we can repay them back is to really study hard and give them a better life in the future.so gonna watch Harry Porter tonight. now i got 7 free tickets. dad got another 3 tickets but he paid for it. 5 bucks each. i mean the extra 3 tickets. think so. im so happy tat everyone can make it. gonna be the best movie night ever. hope so.wats gonna happen next?i wonder.
♥ Thursday, July 12, 2007 ♥
evrytime she said his name..i will laugh and give a weird look. well i cant help it. jus cant stop thinking abt it. so she find kinda weird in my behaviour tis few days. shes getting suspicious abt it. so today she kept pestering me to why i behaved in a weird way whenever she said his name. so took our mly o-level oral today. its not tat easy you know. i cant seem to tink of a long ans. and guess wat, i did say 1 english werd. and oh gosh the teacher helped me in completing the sentence. gosh! im dead! the most mark i shud scored is merit.so decided to go eat at pionner mall as my mum did not cook. well she decided to tag along. well she did not forget abt why i behaved in a weird way. so i tried to run away from the qns but shes feel kinda mad a little coz i seem to keep a secret from her. so we decided to tell each other wat actuali happend.from there we did talk alot abt how he felt abt her. actuali i felt kinda uneasy coz i too had a special feeling on him. since shes my best friend, decided to play along with it but actuali inside i wasnt tat happy. well it doesnt matter now. coz she willing to share it with me. so kept telling myself to get over it. coz it did distract me from my studies. especially in class. as you know im in the same class as them. gosh! so tmr gonna wtach harry porter with friends. got free tickets. cant wait. hope everyone can go. knew qurratu got free tickets for harry porter too but sadly hers is at the tampiness while im is at the cathay.lil bro gonna be disappointed coz mum had told him tat we as a family gonna watch it together but now dad had given the tickets to me n friends. gosh. gonna keep it a secret. hope lil bro will not know abt it. sowie!im happy for you,girl
♥ Tuesday, July 10, 2007 ♥
Presence is more than just being there.trying to get over abt wat he said to me two days ago. kinda felt uneasy n weird when i saw him. well cant stop thinking why he had this sudden feeling towards her. well,all along i pretend to play along with it and support him. well ntg special happened. jus as normal school days. as usual math lesson is so damn noisy. cant really focus and i really need to buck up on my math or else i can forget in going to poly and take my own choice of course. so decided to pack some food home. as i was damn hungry although my mum did cook big fish in sweet and sour dish. haha. well wat to do. kinda miss school food. so mayb at night gonna eat my mum's dish. well she had cooked for us although shes tired with all the houseworks and i kinda feel sad n pity for mum when no one eat her cooking. well i cant really cooked actuali i only know how to cook instant food. the food tat is well prepare in the plastic and all we got to do is to wait for the oil to be hot. haha. well i did try to cook nasi goreng with lil brother. it was our third try. and guess wat. we failed again. so 11-16 july is DPA. direct poly admission. its a quickest way to get into the poly when we get our o-level result. some sort like we book a place in our own choice of course b4 anyone else. but then our o-level points shud be below 26 in order to get a place in the course tat we want. so wish me all the best k.for those who loves science. i mean so damn curios abt science.pls watch Brainiac on arts central at 10pm. [ every tuesday ]
btw diyanah! hope u are ok now.don worry too much k.everyting's gonna be ok again.be strong pls!Answer The CallReuse,Recycle,Reduce pls
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feeling kinda moody actuali. since yesterday. since the time he told me abt her. kinda sad. cant really get over it. well im jus bside him all along but why can he notice me for jus a second. instead he choose my best friend. well i kept telling myself to think positive and get over it but really cant. the werds he said is stored in my freaking brain. i did give him some clue tat i really like him. but donnoe if he get wat i mean. naah. shud i jus forget abt him and wish him all the best in wateva relationship hes going through or tell him my true feelings b4 its too late. well as for my best friend. donnoe how shud i face her. since he told me he had this special feeling on her i cant imagine how am i going to feel whenever i face her. he asked for a date and she still hav not give him the ans. well jus wish him all the best then.every guy tat i make friends with regard me as their close friends. as in they will always share all their stories,problems and even secrets. but did they know my true feelings abt them? or izzit im jus a close friend who they can rely on? oh god! i shud jus say : " hey hey you you i don't like your girlfriends"well dad had 4 movie tickets free. harry porter and the order of phoenix. so decided to ask my friends along. its suhailah,ija and roohee. btw shazlin sowie cant watch it with you. hope we can catch other movie together k.
♥ Monday, July 09, 2007 ♥

having a bad n heavy headache right now. Mon-Sun keep waking up damn early jus to go to school and religious class. jus hate my life. my schdule is getting tight n busy nowadays.
well as usual went to mdrsah today and was kinda sleepy actuali but luckily the last period was damn syiok. the uztad told us abt the greatness of god. we must think first in wateva we do coz god can do anithing to the world or us.
so theres this one story..abt a malay family. in a car. i tink from a village ah. den accident happend on them. police,ambulans and the rescue teams came. gues wat. they were surprised to see all the family were naked. mati dlm bogel. and the worst part was tat the boy's private part was still stucked inside the girl's *toot*.
they tried to pull it oout but cant. and then they discovered the family had convert into christian but their name still malay. so they had to do a christian way to bury them. so now u noe how greatness and powerful is god!
den theres another story. do anyone of you dajjal? well when its hari kiamat..this dajjal will come out. so uztad showed us the picture of dajjal by a name of sai baba. nabi said tat this dajjal is half-blind and tempang. tats how u can recognise the dajjal. but now this dajjal is not blind anymore. he had recovered from it.
so his special power is tat he can bring the dead back again. hidup kan org mati. his body is quite big but not tat big. jus chubby and he had an afro hair. so look out. btw hes a gd dajjal. wont hurt anyone. he teach agama to ppl. i tink he stay ard the india selatan. some sort like tat.
i jus loves listening to all this stories. kinda cool and we can learn more things and know more abt the past. kinda like history but agama version. haha.
and gues wat. theres no school for all the boonlayians! yahoo!
♥ Saturday, July 07, 2007 ♥




today was speech day. was plain lazy to go as i was damn tired. took a long time to end the speech day. classmates were damn restles. some were sleeping. even mr kaming the camera man did sleep too. haha. gues must be boring.
so after tat it was BLSS extravaganza. wasnt tat happening like our sec 2 charity bazzar. so all along i was like taking care of daniel. kak nor's son. did not know looking after a child can be quite tiring. a nanny for half a day uh.
so took him to the fish pond and he kept throwing stones at the fishes. and it was abt time to get back to him mum and hes so damn stubborn and wanted to stay a bit longer. so told him tat his dad will be coming any minute. its like wanting to threaten him but did not werk. so he told me it will be last time he threw the stones and after tat he will get back to his mum. so i believed him and guess wat. he lied. he kepy saying last and he will get back to him mum but did not do so.
so damn mad with and in the end. asked him once again..is this his last and he said..ya last. luckily after the last throw. he get back to his mum. thank god! seriusly it was so damn tiring. donnoe how munirah and kak nor can take care of him.
so b4 tat took him to a balloon maker shop and he wanted a dinosaur. who in this world knew how to make it. so told him no dinosaurs but did hav sword but he strongly did not want it. so decided to show him a dog. the long one. shaped like hot dog. told him tat it was a dinosaurs and kept convince him and in the end he believed.! at last.
all along he treated the dog as a dinosaurs. haha. btw sowie berliana if me and daniel disturb u by cocok ur ears with the sword. jus wanna hav fun. did not know daniel (the boy tat was with me) did it to u too. haha.. sowie.
btw happy 27th bdae kak baddar!
♥ Friday, July 06, 2007 ♥


i did not go to school today. mum allowed it. well she asked me to accompany her to brother's graduation day. had to leave home at abt 8am and was damn sleepy at tat time. there were many graduates and they were in their smart casual. i did dress smart casual and i look like one of the graduates. as if im the one whos gonna graduate from the poly. haha. wait long2.
so went into the auditiorium and had to wait for the guest of honour and gosh he was late. i hate latecomers. haha. well while waiting for the guest of honour to arrive..video of the graduates were shown. they were damn happy and excited. kinda sad at the same time actuali.
so there were abt 401 graduates. and they each recieved thier diploma. kpet asking myself when will i receive my own diploma. i got to study real hard now. follow my brother's footstep and make sure i make it to poly. insyaallah!
so after the ceremony,took picture with brother and his friends were damn friendly. especially his best friend,Terry. and guess wat..there are also good-looking guys. aww. haha. ard 12 plus went home with mum as brother wanna celebrate more with his friends. so when will it be my graduation day.? its on november i guess. gosh..its gonna be a sad n happy moments.
so yesterday night..there were riots at my housing estate. its a fight btw bangla. gosh..they were all shouting at each other and fight broke out. my lil brother and i were looking from our kitchen's window and i was like.. "police! police!" haha..my motive was like to frighten them so they will stop fighting but it did not work of cos. so in this world wanna listen to me epecially when having a fight! haha. duhz!
so 3 men were injured. 2 ambulans came and abt 4 police cars arrived. well my housing estate is not a safe place anymore. they were also stray dogs and cats loitering ard my estate especially the corridor.
i want a nikon camera.
♥ Thursday, July 05, 2007 ♥
Dealing with backstabbers, there was one thing i learned.
They're only powerful when you got your back turned.
this few days i felt so damn restless and tired. its either i hav no enough sleep or its just too much work to be done at the same time. another werd multi-tasking. seriusly i hav a tight and busy schdule. its back again! some people say tat life is full of choices but right now i really hav no choice but to accept my busy and tight schdule.so today after recess,it was physics lesson and i was dman sleepy. wish i cud jus sleep but theres two teacher in the class. so wat i did was to entertain myself and talk to my class buddy. donnoe if he loves talking or chatting with me but wat i know is tat he kept bullying me. well today during english lesson, some people had to read aloud the passage and mr singh asked if there were words tat we dont know. and gues wat. tat class buddy of mine. the one who sat bside me kept asking me stupid qns. he asked wats the meaning of the werd 'animals' .. 'that' .. 'is' .. tats made me mad. so by 15 july, we got to finish our dnt artefact. and im still tyring to make a box to hide my circuit and battery holder for safety as it was made for the toddlers. dnt really loves making me mad. epecially when u don get the right measurement..the perfect bending of plastic. so today there was dnt remedial. how i wish i cud bring along my bed and jus hav a short nap.so now i cant hardly open my eyes. seriusly im so damn tired. had a tiring day yesterday. i lost my bracelet tat i bought at Redang at gym yesterday. the other time i lost my bro's watch tat i bought for him as a bdae gift. gosh. i kept losing things. so damn freaking irritating! restless. tired. plus i got a blue-black on my back. jus above my buttocks. its ard my waist. i knocked onto the locker keys at the gym yesterday. having a hard time jus now..walking to school. hope it will be ok in a few days time.tmr im not going to school. mum asked me to accompany her to brother graduation day as dad cant tag along. so tmr gonna skip skol of this lame reason. haha..but its ok. i need a break from all the school werk. haha. great!mummy..i need a haircut!
♥ Wednesday, July 04, 2007 ♥
ok. i feel guilty right now. scared at the same time. today had chemistry remedial and we had to do practical as usual. gosh damn boring. its like every remedial u jus hav to do some stupid practical. actuali not stupid. its for our own good actuali. haha. but imagine u hav to do practical all day and u don understand a single ting plus its so damn hot in tat freaking science lab. it started at 3.40pm but the monitor said our science teacher pushed forward the time to 1.40pm so we went to the science lab and theres no one. so we were damn freaking hot and in the end some decided to skip the practical as we thgt it will be the same practical we did last week. but maan told me tat our science teacher was damn mad as we did not turn up for the practical. we asked to push forward the time but in the end we did not turn up. shit! we are really in deep trouble now! its not we don want to turn up..its like the weather is so hot and we are so damn tired.so heck care abt it for now. tommorrow can settle it. so right now..i got to stop here as im gg gym as usual on every wednesday with ija and sue. and by the time i reached home, i got to rush again to go for my night tuition! and people! i really need the harry porter cds. harry porter and the sorcerer's stone. harry porter and the goblet of fire. and more. pls i need it all! b4 the new harry porter show is showing on cinema! im late!
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Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key.mum is so like duh today. well i usually went to my religious class (ngaji) at 6pm. tats my usual timing as i finished school ard 5pm. so today i had no remedial and mum was like.."nvr go religious class izit?" told her my time slot is at 6pm. so she left and called me again. to come at 3.30pm since i hav ntg to do at home. so quickly packed my beg..changed into my religious clothes tat i usually use. i was damn in a hurry when my mum called me again telling me not to come as there were many people attending at her time slot. was damn mad actuali. but im ok now. haha.nthg much happened today in school. jus tat ija and feena did not come. so no friend to talk to or eat with. guess wat. i pay attention today in all the subjects lesson plus i did almost the homework tat the teacher told us to do. how great can it be right. especially math. got to really improve on my math now. sign up for english n math tuition. no choice. jus to please my dad. but kinda ok actuali.make new friends and learn new tactics in answering math qns.decided to go library to look for the book but the library is so damn big and i did not know where to start looking for tat book. since im so lazy to look for it,decided to play the computer. iskandar is indeed a kampung boy. hes so damn irritating.kept asking for help. well he jus sign up for friendster and kept asking me where to click and wat shud he do next. dammit! k i hav to go now. its anak metropolitan now. i know its repeated show but who cares. its fun to watch it over and over again. haha. so till here then. we will meet again soon. insya-allah.take care.
♥ Monday, July 02, 2007 ♥
If you're being chased by a police dog, try not to go through a tunnel, then on to a little seesaw, then jump through a hoop of fire. They're trained for that!im so damn full right. dammit! i drank too much
root beer tat i cant finished the whole packet of nasi goreng
ikan bilis. wait a minute! ikan bilis! im ikan bilis. how can i eat myself?!
pelik tapi benar.
sometimes i did agree tat things wouldnt always go our way and it really sucks. tats wat she said. and it did happen to me today. well yesterday plan of gg out to eat with
duhzcrew but did not work out instead.
so today mum did not cook today. b4 she went for werk this morning, she cooked some burgers for breakfast but she did not cook any meal for lunch. she left me n lil brother 5 bucks each and told us to buy our own lunch. so asked sue to accompany to LJS but in the end she cant make it.
so was like in dilemma at tat moment. did not know wat to eat since ive been craving for LJS. so wrote down all the foods tat i wanted to eat. nasi ayam,nasi goreng and western. but the problem was where shud i buy my lunch? so asked for ppl's opinion and in the end went 815 as it was the nearest food court.
plan to watch harry porter this july with shazlin but b4 tat i hav to download all the harry porter movies right from the beginning so tat i can understand how the storyline goes like. so if anyone hav any episodes of harry porter story..pls lend me. i need it. not only tat..i also need pirates of the carribean 2 and 3.

and btw im so obsessed with waffle. plain waffle. if only mum bought the
waffle machine as my bdae gift, i will be the happiest gerl ever! people will keep cuming to me for free waffle. hehe.
pro wrestler Chris Benoit strangled his wife and suffocated his 7-year-old son before hanging himself. he killed his son by doing his special power which he usually use during the wrestling match. oh god! hes so cruel!
you know wat? after reading qurratu's post abt this best friends loves each other but both did not express their love to one another which in the end the girl married another guy. but the ending was damn sad as when the guy attended the girl's funeral, he found a note abt she expressing her love to him. its jus a summary. hope i can find the book!
so right now i jus wish tat sum1 who i admire will be my date on this graduation night. jus hoping but i noe it wont come true! you noe wat the best part is tat i will be like wearing a evening gown and my date will be like wearing a suit. a tuxedo. hehe.
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What is Love?
Its when someone hurts u & u still love the same with every broken piece.
right now i cant stop thinking abt the guy who was sleeping in the bus. well took 174 back home from my madrasah and went to the second decker and saw a guy..malay guy sleeping so soundly bhind. so heck care abt him but then by the time the bus reached the boonlay interchge, the malay guy still sleeping. thgt of waking him up but then did not wake him up tho. so hopefully the bus driver checked the second decker and woke him up. hopefully.
as usual every sunday went to mdrsah today and i discovered i did not zip my pants. actuali i did zip. mayb it jus that the zip is loose. excuses! haha..was late for class and told the teacher i woke up late when actuali i waited for my cousin. ish ish. tipu sunat! haha.
plan to meet up with my duhzcrew? tmr and mayb eat together at some kind of nice place. since tmr is youth day,there will be no school but i heard poly is not having a holiday. so hopefully roohee can make it tmr for the meet up. really hope to meet up with them.
ever since i can use my computer once again..been listening to the radio for new songs. so if anyone hav any new songs or nice songs to recommend pls inform me abt it k. thanks.
well today my brother will be going back to pulau tekong. haiz. im gg to be alone again. its like i get to be with my brother for jus 2 and a half days. he will be going home on every friday afternoon and hav to go back on every sunday evening. gosh!
well yesterday watched the international friendly match btw the spore lions and australia. cant believed tat spore lost. wat happened? well to me riduan wasnt playing actively. he seems distracted. hes changed. but sharil is getting better and better. fuyoo. and not to forget indra. i cant take my eyes of him. but hes married. hurhur.
well national stadium will be gone any moment. gonna miss all the times i had with my school and friends when we had our first national day performance. kinda sad to see the national stadium tat gonna be demolished. no more kallang roar. no more kallang wave.im gonna miss youlike a child misses the blanket
♥ Sunday, July 01, 2007 ♥
its saturday today. as usual no plan. kinda bored right now. brother is not at home. lil brother is sleeping again. mum is doing her own stuffs. grandma is out. dad had gone out for werk. so wat do i talk abt today. lets talk abt my class, i hav soo many things to say abt them. well my previous post stated tat my class are getting more closer and closer right. well its true..they r getting more closer and closer that they kept bullying me. ever since the incident at the chalet thingy. they kept bulliying me saying me im the bad guy now. duh. well at the chalet. iskandar planned to play water bomb. so me followed him and went to the seond floor of the bangalow and decided to throw to anyone at the barbecue pit. then this weiyang was like standing jus below us looking damn like idiot and suddenly the water bomb fell right on his face. since then my classmates kept bulliying saying im the bad guy. haha.other than that pur class are sooo close tat we played some sort like a prank on teachers. as you know when someone say the werd 'huh' we hav to reply back with the werd 'taik'. till now i donnoe why we must reply it tat way. so syahrul deciced to play it on the chinese and now they get the hand of it. so in class now whenever we heard anyone say the werd 'huh' we as a class will reply 'taik'. since everyone in the class get the hand of it..we decided to play it on the teachers.1st victim: Ms Lee SYchemistry lesson. shitan and syahrul will be like asking qns in a fast way so tat ms lee will say the werd 'huh'. but then ms lee did not say it but they kept trying. in the end they gave up. lessons were over. mission failed instead!2nd victim: Ms Weemaths lesson. as usual shitan n syahrul will talk in a fast mode but ms wee have this habit in saying 'yes' 'can i help you' whenever we ask qns. but they still wont give up and theres one time ms wee was abt to say 'huh' but theres no sound cuming out of her mouth jus the expressing! its a waste actuali. but yesterday they did try again and we tend to forget abt playing it on ms wee and we asked her a qns nicely n slowly and gues wat. she said 'huh' loud n clear. without hesitation we as class said 'taik'well all these pranks may sound lame n stupid tho but when you n ur own class do something as a team..it feel great n fun you know. well our class motto is 'united we stand'. we used the motto as the previous class the last two yrs createdthe motto so this yr we will be using it again..its jus like passing it to another generations.right now im out of words.im back to tuition again.im gonna make use of it this yr.i really hope this yr tuition gonna make me clear all my subjects.i wish.