♥ Friday, August 31, 2007 ♥
today was teacher's day celebration. and we did a last minute card for mdm shafiee. and it was big. the size of vanguard sheet. so had a little trouble of getting all the 5n2 of signing the big card coz mdm shafiee was with us. so did manage to sign the big card in the end.
all the performers were super great. omg. but we wished we cud do our skit. but its ok. i like the big project show. especially hanis doing the moonwalk and other stuffs. & he sang so nicely. aww. hehe. as for the band, i prefer syahrul band. they the most happening band and the vocalist is super great. i like the second song, its all abt u. aww. so sweet.
so mdm shafiee was asked to sing on stage. and she sang so beautifully. yeah. shes the best. so the award thingy was next and we as a class were like getting ready to stand up if mdm shafiee won any award. so we told ourselves tat at least mdm shafiee will win one award
but suprisely, she did not win anything and it did upset us coz all the teachers tat won the award were like the newcomer teachers. must be the lower sec vote lor. argh! not fair! stupid! hehe. so after the whole celebration, we gave the big card to mdm shafiee. aww. shes gonna display it on her wall. yeah
so went to eat at blok 815 with the dnt freaks and friends. and i cant forget the time when everyone was all quiet and ija was like interrupted the quietness. wtf. wat the hell am i talking. omg. my english sux. hehe
it all began when i asked for everyone for their dad's and english name.
Hanis: eh shi tan wats ur father name? tan ah?
Shi tan: no. its chua.
Hanis: darren (YL) wats ur english name?
Darren: darren lor.
( everyone was like laughing at me as i was like asking him stupid qns when actuali darren is his english name, but honestly i donnoe tat darren is a english name.omg. paisey)
so mirdza tried to give shi tan an english name as he did not hav any english name. so he was given a name such as 'richard tan, bob chua...ect' den everyone had stop laughing abt it and suddenly ija interrupted saying her dad name 'norisham' its like we were talking abt an english name and suddenly a mly name came out.
so i was laughing non stop and while im writing tis post, im still laughing. omg. ija ija. u're so like duh. so wanna have some slip now. super tired.
btw happy holidays peeps. study hard k. no more playing ok.
and btw roohee, thanks for cuming. lup ya sooo much.
♥ Monday, August 27, 2007 ♥
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its been two day i did not post anything. omg. all becoz im bz with my cousin's wedding and i wasnt feeling well. been vomitting since the past 2 days. so not wasting any time, let me update u peeps wat i had been doing for the past 2 days.
saturday:
early2 morning went to library to do my dnt stuffs. went to my mum's sister house as my cousin are getting married. so saturday was the day which the groom kena akad nikah. it started lps asar. i can see tat the groom looked nervous but still put a smile.
so cousins and i lpk2 at the playground, played the guitar and guess wat, i learned some guitar kord. yahoo. my uncle and lil cuzzin were damn patient with me. thanks guys. and theres one part tat im really really jealous abt.
it was the photographer. omg. as he held on to his nikon camera, i jus wished it was mine. and the way he held on to the camera to take pictures of the couples, i told myself tat i will study hard and one day the nikon camera will be mine soon.
so i decided to gave it a shot and borrowed my cuzzin's digital camera and took some pics. (see pics and pls comment. hehe) the best pics i ever took.
sunday:
was sick. stayed at home all day instead of helping out at my cousin's wedding. omg. i miss the grand event and miss all the fun tat my cousins were having. sowie cousins for not attending the wedding. hehe.
so all day i was sleeping. and kept tossing abt. cant really slip. was like angry with myelf as why must i get sick on cousin wedding. haiz. but i managed to get thru and went to school today as prelim started today.
guess wat. i screwd up. omg. gotta go now. wanna vomit! wtf.
hakuna matata means no worries for the rest of your day
Those two words will solve all your problems.
♥ Friday, August 24, 2007 ♥
had english oral today. and honestly i did not feel nervous like the one i sat for MT oral. i jus donnoe why. mayb becoz i knew one of the teachers. shes my sec 2 form teacher and i was given a beta form bcoz of her. haha. its an old story. don want to tok abt it.so practice my speech and picture conversation while waiting for my turn. "good afternoon teachers" tat was my first sentence. chey. so read the passage and i tink im ok with it except tat i cant pronounce a sentence tat has so many 'S'. haha. omg. as for the picture conversation i tink i did badly coz i did not describe tat many but as for the conversation i did pretty well for the first topic but as for the second topic i seemd to like donnoe wat to say and i kept repeating. haha.so after tat met the rest under the void deck jus in front of th school. and then, we saw mr chew was like approaching us. so two of my friends walked away quickly as they did something tat they shud not did in their uniform. so maan was like.."lari, lari" in a kanchong but innocent look. as in his lips are not moving but he manged to like told them to run. its kinda funny in a way he talked and how he asked them to run. as if they stole something and maan is their look-out. seriusly damn funny when i thgt back abt it. haha. so going to night study today at school library. its gonna be dark jus like wat ija describe it to me. omg. u'r so bad ija.and today i cant miss ghost whisperer. shes so dman pretty. haha. and azwan if u reading this, pls tell sakinah to STOP bullying me. but its kinda cute u noe when kecik bully kecik. haha. but then as usual im always the victim. haiya. wat a life man. haha& guess wat, me n ija are sooo like duh today. coz we jus got to know tat the girl who followed us to watch the fireworks with us the other time is in the same school as us. so i was like " ija is tat the girl who followed us?, wats her name?" and ija was like " huh? no lar. or is tat the girl?"so we walked closer to her and we were right. it was her. haha. & she remember my name. yeah! haha. but den sadly i forget her name. its han ling. yeah. must remember so the next time i see her i call her. i heard tat grad nite theme is fairytale. omg. wat am i gg to wear? wicked witch in the storytale of sleeping beauty? shrek? cinderella? omg. im so confused plus i need money to buy clothes and stuffs. gotta save money now and im gonna convince my parents to buy me a nikon camera. i don care! hehe.everyone loved a girl in a prom dress, even one with tears in her eyes.
♥ Thursday, August 23, 2007 ♥
having a break now. been doing my dnt folio from 3pm. and my back hurts. plus my neck too. i need a massage machine. hehe. so today school was fine. a bit bland and boring. it was late day today and i went to school with shazlin today. shes was pretty fast. omg. sowie if im always late.well shazlin, don worry much abt him k. guys jus don understand girls. they perfer us to be more straightforward then we beating about the bush and gg ard the circle. u noe wat i mean right. haiya. why cant guys figured out wat girls are trying to say to them? is it tat hard?SEL period. mdm shafiee kept saying abt how our future gonna be if we wont study hard now. 1% of my class population will be gg to ITE while the rest aim to go for poly. i can see tat most of my classmates are trying really hard in their weak subjects. so 5n2, let study together, pass together and go to our won choice of poly and course. but sadly my cca grade is c6 and i cant really accept. coz it will be hard for me to get into the course tat i like. as in person A is a 6 point grade for o-level and me is a 6 point grade too. but when we both hav the same points, the school will then look at our cca points or conducts and if person A gets a A1 for his cca and i, the c6 grade, surely the person A will get a place. right?!last few minutes of phy lesson, i wasnt pay any attention, becoz of darren the roasted chicken who cried bcoz of an elephant. haha. and he is damn irritating at times. omg. so we talked bad things abt mr koh. abt him cant pronounce certain letters. hehe. omg. if mr koh get hold of my blog, im in a big trouble. hehe.MT lesson. kept gg to library for other lesson such as math,sci. as in self studies. & btw jus to tell u peeps, mrs manu is super gd in maths. so any prblem in maths, ask her. but den ..fuyoo. she has the smell tat u really hav no choice but to keep calling her if u hav problem in ur maths.hahaso tmr its english oral. gonna think of something to help me calm down when facing the teachers from other schools. omg. pray hard for me tat i can pas my oral. english is super important to me. not only me to all those taking major exams. hmm, will continue doing my dnt folio tonight, im so glad tat mr E extend the dateline which is on next wed. yeah. i hav abt 5 days to finish up. and teachers day are cuming. the boring part of teachers' day celebration is the ACES DAY. BLSS put on ur best behaviour on tt day coz mrs nathan is cuming! yahoo!I made the choice to finally go because I can’t stand this pain. It’s time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again.
♥ Tuesday, August 21, 2007 ♥
today i was super damn restless. i donnoe why. its like im too tired and really don hav the mood to study no more. gosh. prelim is jus next week and i hav not prepare anything for it. gonna fail coz i heard prelim is much more difficult than o-level.
so PE we did the wall thingy. not wall climbing. hehe. and i tend to finish it till the end but then i wasnt strong enough and my legs are short. dammit. but congrats ija. u finished it till the end. hehe. "spiderpig! spiderpig!"
well something shocking happend to me and its kinda funny actuali. it was after recess. math period. ms wee came late as usual and everyone was busying doing their own things. as for me i was like keeping my table tidy especially the books under my table.
suddenly my classmate,darren YL came to me. honestly i did not see him coming to me and then he was holding a spray can. a white spray can which we used it for our national day thingy. he tend to frighten me with it as if he wanna spray it to me. well he tght the can was empty.
so he accidentally pressed it and a splat of white spray landed on my cute cheeks. hehe. so i quickly went to the toilet to wash it off b4 the paint gets hard and permanent onto my cheeks. and i noticed my hair had a spray of white spray too. and i cant get it off.
omg. my classmates are sooooo like duh. kept bullying me as if im the victim for all their silly acts. haha. but luckily im cool. im a easy-going person except tat don make me mad coz i hav my limits too. don test my patience peeps. haha.
met up with sue outside school and we were like sitting under the blok jus infront of the school. shes kinda miss school uh. so we were like sitting there watching students gg home. saying bad things abt ppl. gossiping. hehe. oops.
in the end, we decided to go ija house. and it was like we were having a chalet there, eating and watching a movie. haha. we watched 'Honey'. its a dance movie. theres jessica alba, lil'romeo,missy elliot and more. if u peeps like dancing, watch it.
right now, i gotta nothing to do and so damn boring. mum is sick. she jus vomitted and as her daughter i did not ask her how shes feeling right now. im jus a bad and lazy daughter. i cant do things right. hopefuli mum will be ok.
and 1 more thing, my legs,hands kept having blueblacks. gonna see a doctor soon coz im scared something bad is happening to my body. or mayb my immune systems isnt tat gd. chey.or mayb theres 'something' living in my house. mcm phm lak. coz after i fell or bang against something, theres blueblack. hurhur. i noe its normal but then long long ago, it wasnt this serius.
I can't believe how suddenly things change.
I never should of waited so long to say.
*Heartbreak happens to the best of us,
we can't hide from it and we can't deny it
so just accept it, no matter how hard it is and no matter how much it hurts*
♥ Monday, August 20, 2007 ♥
PE was fun as usual. haha. this time ard. girls vs boys but boys are much more than the girl.s so mr bong helped us. everytime the ball fell on the ground, its the girl's ball. so when the guys snatched it, its a foul. when the girls held onto the ball, the guys must stand away from the girls for a limited distance. haha. and it was super fun.so asked kelly and ija to come my house to study. went to ija hs first as kelly needed to change. so walked home with them. told my mum friends were cuming and she cooked 'kuih teow' tats how she spell it. haha. funny lar mum. ija and me did our dnt folio while kelly did her math. but then we did talk alot than we did our work. haha.after they ate, both of them complained tat they were sleepy. omg. especially ija. haha. pity her. she wished she cud jus lie on her comfortable mr bean bed. hehe. too bad. so next time come my house, bring along ur bed k. kelly had to leave at 4.50pm as shes meeting michelle for tuition. so ija still stayed.& we talked alot. when we are both together, we tend to tink alike. jus like wat mdm shafiee said "great mind think alike" and its the fact. haha. so i talked abt my mum and dad. on how they get married. well mum n dad were in the same school and then coincidently they were in the same workplace. omg. haha.so told ija tat actuali dad wasnt supposed to married mum but mum's bestfriend. and told her mum best friend was our friend's mum. she knew who was it. and and. i was like oh no. shud not start on tat topic coz ija and me are best friends and we always tok abt this particular boy. ehem.gosh.so ija went home at abt 8.30pm . hehe. tats gd. im lucky tat she went to my place to do our dnt coz w/o her i will be like surfing the net and chatting all day. hehe. as for my dnt folio, im half way there. hopefuli by fri we can finish it all. yes we can! haha.ok no much time now. gotta eat. hehe. slip night and sweet dreams.shes so confused.she really donnoe wat to do.
♥ Sunday, August 19, 2007 ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12Z6pWhM6TAwatch this video. super cute. shes only 3 yrs old and she made her first song.
nothing much happend today. as usual went to religious clss and we had to combine class with the other class. super bored. cuzzin was late. super late. she was super like duh, coz she did not bring any books plus she was damn late. as if she owns tat place. haha.so after mdrsah, went to mama hs. play monopoly. spongebob monopoly. abg alif bought it long time ago. well at first abg alif played well. then it was me whos the richest coz i was like holding so many 500 dollars but sadly i went bankrupt when i stepped into abg alif's territories and had no choice but to sell all my house. omg. went home with my aunts. as they were gg to jemputan at jrg west lama. so took the same bus and i dropped off at boonlay interchge. was all alone till i reached home. honestly i prefer to be alone when i took the bus coz i jus hav this habit of daydreaming and prefer not to be disturb. its like thinking abt all the past memories, the gd n the bad.theres hy exam tmr. and i hav not even start studying. teachers kept reminding us to study now. wat ms lizah said was true. coz she experienced wat we go thru now. she said its hard to start study now when u actuali don hav the mood to study but then she said we gotta start slowly coz theres still time. i did agree with her..but then i cant really start. i kept telling myself tat im gonna pass my prelim and especially my o-level.so brother had told parents abt his problems and they support his idea. hopefuli brother will be free from her. if can asap. gosh. we will be waiting for the time when brother will be able to do wat he hav to do at his age now. so cuzzins..when the time comes,the time when abg is free from her, lets celebrate k. haha. u noe wat i mean right, lysa. haha.hmm. well gotta go now. damn hungry. hehe. haven eaten my dinner yet. haha. so mayb i will be fasting next week or next two weeks as i need to pay back my fasting days. i tink i need to pay back ard 5 days. omg. but at the same time. it will help me to save some money for gard night. hehe.follow the notes upon a journey,at first sight mark's one destiny.once the voyage comes to an end,return lies within hasty keys.
♥ Thursday, August 16, 2007 ♥
jus reached home. super sleepy now. haha so decided to watch secrets with classmates. luckily theres english subtitles. so we were on time. we occupied 10 seats in front. so i was the only malay there. i tink so. and i kept eating the popcorns. dammit. cant really stop eating. haha. so the show was funny, sweet and sad. when its funny, its super funny but when its sad, its super super sad. and i got a secret to tell. i did cry too. omg. but i did control it. haha. the ending left me with a qns mark. wat happend next? did jay came back to the future again? did he stay in the past with the girl? wats gonna happened to jay's dad? omg. gotta asked jay chou coz hes the one who made the movie, secrets.so after watching. darrenYL was so like duh. he said he did not understand. the first part he meant. omg. tat boy. well actuali i also don understand when the part jay noes the real story but luckily i was fast and understand the whole story. yeah!so really had fun today especially after school today. b4 our math remedial, the boys decided to play soccer. well we don hav the real soccer ball. for the past few days, we made a ball with a newspaper and wrapped it with a scotch tape.we went outside the toilet. the fourth level toilet and we played monkey. its like someone in the middle and the monkey who is in the middle must touch the ball while the rest kept passing the ball to one another.and we really had fun. we played quietly as we were damn near to the express class. theres bloopers gg on too and we did laugh but after a few seconds we kept our voice down as we noe the express class were having class. and the best part. our own monitor played as well. hehe. syiok ah!super tired, been scratching my whole body. ants kept crawling up my body. well we took bus 99 home and we were like sitting at the bus stop when kelly felt itchy suddenly and we discovered tat theres a 'grp of ants' jus under our shoes.omg. gotta bath soon. damn itchy sia.well honestly, in the middle of the movie, i kept thinking abt how am i gonna express my feelings to him. shud i jus tell him straight or wait for the right time? omg. im confused. well kept telling myself to move on and mayb one day i will find the right n perfect guy.i cant help wondering,what is going to happen to me in future.my life,my career,my family and most important thing,my story.who is going to complete it?
♥ Wednesday, August 15, 2007 ♥
did laugh alot becoz coz syahrul and shi tan. super tired with all the laughings. well wen we laughed we used our stomach muscle. hehe. so school per normal. except tat feena cant come bcoz of her leg injury yesterday and had to be bandaged. kecian dia.as usual during dnt class, classmates kept bullying me include Mr E. omg and one more thing he kept asking me abt iskandar and oh god. i seriusly donnoe wat happened to him and donnoe if he wanna continue schooling. hes been absent since MYE exam are over. haha. so mr E was like " hanis may look small but we donnoe wat is she thinking" as in thinking the yellow-minded thingy. coz we always talk abt relationship. u noe the BGR thingy. and since tat, they kept saying those sentence tat mr E said earlier. omg. my life is so miserable and pathetic. haha.so had a short period of english remedial today. and after tat went to canteen to eat b4 gg to chemistry remedial. we were like joking ard and laughing damn loud. its fun being with them coz all ur problems and stress will be gone in a second. u wont be thinking abt other things except fun and laughters.so nurul and nadiah was like talking abt cats. she asked nurul to look for a new born cat and gave it to her..so i was like.." nadiah, kau suka kucing jaga kau" coz all this while we look after the cats but does the cats like? coz sometime we gotta put ourselves inside their shoes. u get wat i mean. so syahrul joined in as asked me.." kau suka kerusi ddk atas kau?" as you know all this while we were sitting on chair or bench. the chair must hav feelings too right? as in the weight of the person who is sitting on it. kalau lah kerusi leh ckp..konperm dia ckp.." alamk, beratnye kau." something like tat. haha. so accompany ija to gek poh to buy some girl's stuff. hehe. sshh if u noe. decided to send her home as she had a serius stomachache. it will come once every month. and when it comes, i gotta take care of her coz if the serius stomachache attacked her, she will feel damn weak and will surely faint if she cant hold it anymore. so we walked till this unknown blok and sat. she really cant take it anymore. tat part im super scared and worried coz i donnoe wat to do if she really faint. shud i call 995 or her famili? so when she said she cant take it anymore. mark her words. or else u will regret it. hehe.so called her brother and her dad came a few minutes later. they slowly walked with her. gosh. luckily shes till can breathe. oh oh, don get the wrong idea. wat i mean was she can still give us a smile to indicate shes fine. thank god!kelly & friends plan to watch secrets tmr and watch fireworks on this fri. haiya. gotta ask my parents abt it. hope i can go. serius. i really wanna go. its gonna be fun. plus im not gg to retake my mly o-level as i wanna concentrate on my other subjects especially my math n science.so tats my day today. nothing much. gotta stop here. need a bath. smelly! sticky!and one more thing. there will be tuition tonight. haiya. gonna be bored. shud buy myself some kitkat b4 doing some wrksht.The way i see it, if you want the rainbow,you gotta put up with the rain.
♥ Tuesday, August 14, 2007 ♥
Don't feel guilty if you're having a hard time communicating with your family right now. Sometimes familiarity breeds contempt, and the people who know you the best are also the people who bug you the most. Just give yourself some distance from the relatives who are getting on your nerves. You need to keep yourself from saying something or doing something that could hurt their feelings. It's okay to need a break from the ties that bind every once in a while!
Today i check my horoscope and it said something like i am having a hard time communicating with my family. well its kinda true actuali. been chatting with my beloved aunt and kept sharing all my problems to her coz she is the only tat understand. even brother called her from camp jus to tell all his problems. aunt told me brother does not hav the guts to tell parents abt his problems. especially on one particular problem. pity him. as his lil sista, i cant do much abt it. wasnt feeling tat gd actuali. had a stomach cramp. girl's stuff. u noe i noe. haha. ssshh is u noe abt it. so something bad happend during PE today. as usual we played captain's ball and it wa super fun but today we played damn rough and i donnoe why. hehe.so both teams played damn well. after scoring a goal, the other teams scored a goal too. i did fall alot today and kept banging onto something, its either the tall people or those who kept running in front of me and wont go away. any more minute will be recess time and we still played on and then, feena fell and she cried in pain. she landed on her left knee. the knee tat she had injured it b4 during the last yr captain's ball tournament. seriusly damn in pain.. she lie motionless, crying.tried to stretch her leg but could not. all i had to do was to make some jokes and everyone did join too as well so as to calm feena down. she was super scared tat her ligament wil tear again. but shes was damn stubborn tat she did not want to go to the hospital for check up. carried her by stretcher as she could not even stand up and walked. she was sent to the hospital i tink. as it was swollen and she really need a check up as last yr when the doctor asked her to go for scan she did not go. haha. stubborn little girl.well darren and i agree tat one day our enemy will become our best friend and best friend will bcome our enemy. so he was like.." so do u wanna be my best friend for life?" and i was like.."ya sure. so right now all we got to do is fight and argue all day and bcome enemy now" so we argued and fought. but seriusly all those things abt best friend bcoming our enemy and our enemy bcoming our best friend is kinda true actuali. and when its kinda weird and funny when u heard darren speaks in malay. jus now he jus learnt some malay sentence.."kau jgn buat darah aku naik" and "maan,rambut kaki kau rabak" haha.so gotta stop here. super tired right now. told shazlin tat im gonna study today. guess im not gg to study today. haha. mayb tmr. insyaallah. prelim is jus 2 more weeks. tats wat shazlin told me. haha. omg. im so damn scard and worried now.It's sad, but sometimes moving on is the best way.Starts with goodbye
♥ Monday, August 13, 2007 ♥
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get on to the other side,I
guess it's gonna break me down,
Like fallin' when you're trying to fly
It's sad, but sometimes
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye
I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me,
But getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.
Time heals,
The wounds that I feel,
Somehow, right now.
♥ Saturday, August 11, 2007 ♥
ok im reading a storybook right now and had to stop for awhile as i gotta update my blog today. as u can see, i update my blog everyday no matter how bz i am except tat if my dad wont allow me to use it at all. so my eye has heal. and thanks god it does not feel itchy anymore.so went lib to study for monday ss CA again. gosh. im gonna fail again. it seems like i cant study anymore. and im quite worried abt it coz prelims is jus ard the corner and o-level is jus a few mths away. omg. im dead. so went lib with michelle, kelly, shitan, ija. we did talk abt the national day celebration abt us 5n1 winning first place for the most patriotic class. we cant still get over it. haha. so kelly watched the movie, secrets with her primary school friends. dammit. and she told us it was super sad and she cried. haha.so she planned to watch again with us. and not to forget to bring some tissues along too. haha. michelle and kelly recommend me and ija some storybooks and we did lend one tat they recommend. been reading it till now and the story is super nice. abt gg to prom. and two of them are trying real hard to find a date.gosh. who is gonna be my date on graduation night this yr? haiz. i noe its not gonna be him. nvm. graduation is still a far away thingy. o-level come first. i really feel damn pressure and stress at home. mum keep on shouting and nagging, dad keep on telling us to study and study. lil brother keep finding troubles and wont listen to parents, tat makes them super mad tat i was scolded too for no gd reason. argh! can explode anytime. keep finding excuse jus to get out of the house.haiz. seriusly i cant stand living in this big house. no peace at all. they knew exams are jus ard the corners espeically my major exam,o-level and they are damn freaking noisy. i mean why can they settle things peacefully. especially my fucking lil brother, kept finding troubls and ever since he turned 14 yrs old, he becoming rebellious.omg wish i cud jus shout shut up and this house will be more peace and quiet. i cant really take it anymore. tats why i prefer staying at school or even outside with friends. jus don ask me to go home straight after school. and pls don ask me abt my family coz i don hav the ans to it and would rather prefer it not to tell unless i really need someone to express my feelings.argh!why don i jus start with a goodbye.it will be better that way.& pls don ask me why.
♥ Friday, August 10, 2007 ♥
spore had turn 42 yrs old yesterday and mum's age is also 42yrs old. but mum's bdae came first. bluek. hahaanother boring day. wish today had school not public holiday. jus hate school holiday coz i seriusly had no plan during holidays unless dad hav plan b4hand. haha. so yesterday was national day. this yr they made use of the water and it was super great. haha. wish i cud be there with all my classmates. wish my parents cud be reasonable for once. wish i cud hav a little freedom. but of all. it was jus my wish. nothing great abt it. it wont come true eventually.woke up and mum wasnt at home, went out to werk so damn early in the morning and saw lil'brother and big brother watching a vcd title captivity. super great man. haha. cool movie. shud watched it peeps. but theres some sex scenes. oh oh. hehe. shud rated it PG or even NC16.so i jus cant figured out why i kept wanting to vomit. my stomach does not feel gd. everytime i eat a plate of rice and a few dishes, i ended up throwing some of the food coz i cant simply finish it all. ija told me not to even tink abt vomitting so whenever i wanna vomit, i would jus breathe in and out and think abt something else. and it worked. thanks friend.so my right eye is alright now. hope so. but it still feel kinda itchy and i cant simply touch it coz it is painful. hoping tat it will heal b4 school reopens again or else its time to meet a doctor. yeah. haha. cant wait for monday as there will be PE lesson. gosh.wonder wat are we gonna play for PE next week. not another captain's ball match coz i kept falling down and my knee still hurts. been putting ice pack on it..and ouch. it was damn cold and numb.peeps, whenever theres public holiday or school holiday, pls make some plan and ask me out. i cant really stay at home all day coz it will make me crazy. even if u peeps are gg out for studies, jus ask me out. coz i've been looking for a study mates. hehe. and ija is my best study mates haha. right? kept buying food instead of studying. so tmr saturday, plan to go out study with my classmates. by tmr i gotta finish all my hw coz sunday there will be a tuition class for me. and i bet ya its gonna be a boring day for me again. its from 3pm-6pm. wth. its a make up lesson for last week too. gotta bring something to entertain me. kept telling mum tuition not gonna make me pass. and she ignored me! coz tat freaking tuition keep changing tutors and eveyone keep teaching different methods.well gotta stop here. my right eye is feeling itchy now. gotta put some eyemo. c ya ard in school k. btw EYE and Prelim is jus ard the corner. study hard.i'd lie for youbut its hard for me to tell you,i love you
♥ Thursday, August 09, 2007 ♥
Happy Bdae Singapore!
today it is a public holiday for all. after all the fun and hardwork we had yesterday during the national day eve in school, we deserved some break. haha. gosh. seriusly i was super tired tat i slept right after i reached home yesterday. well had to reach school at 6.30am yesterday and had to store all the energy till the end of the national day celebration plus the teacher's day auditions.
so my eye is getting worse. bigger than the other eye. mum did bought the eyemo yesterday and put a drop of it into my eyes and this morning, had a hard time of opening my eye. gosh. it so damn itchy and pain. wat did i do wrong to deserve it? mum kept saying i sat in front of the computer toooooo long. haha. and i totally agree after much thinking abt it. so gonna cut down till me eye heal.
so spent my day today eating and eating, watch tv and sleep. gosh. damn bored. 60% of my class population went to see fireworks today. gosh gonna miss the fun they had. brother went there too with friends. haiz. he totally forget all abt me. he used to ask me out whenever hes free. but now he kept gg out with friends whenever he come back from camp. NS i mean. he did tell me last week while hes otw to camp, telling me tat one of this days, we will be gg out wth his girlfriend. but now? empty promises!
been asking brother out whenever he come back from camp on every fri night till sunday but he kpt rejecting me. ever since he been admitted into NS..i cud only see him 2 and half day. why can he spend the day off with me or my famili instead? sometimes i even scared to ask him out with cousin coz i noe he will keep rejecting me, saying he got something on.
so now, gonna watch national day at home with family, im ok with it. im used to it watching at home. the last time i went to stadium to watch national day was when i was sec 2 which i get to perform on the national day itself, being a cloud. wont forget tat day coz i did hav fun, miss all the fun i had with friends and how we will went home late, smuggled in some pizza/KFC boxes again when we had one already.
right now, i realised its jus hard to get over it and move on. wish he cud jus shut up and let it be a secret btw them. coz i don want to noe anthing no more. it jus hurts me more. i thgt i cud jus get over it and move on but i failed. right now i jus had to pretend and hoping for the best. i tink shazlin was right..she was shocked when i told her i shud jus move on.she did tell me to jus tell him straight but im jus don hav the courage, wishing one day i cud jus blurt it out those three words to him. and another three werds to her.
i admit i still like him.
if anything do go wrong one day,
put the blame on me.
coz im willing to take any blame from you
even though no one wanna take that blame.
♥ Wednesday, August 08, 2007 ♥
5N2 ROX!
WE ARE THE SAILOR OF THIS YR NATIONAL DAY THEME.
STAMFORD RAFFLES IS OUR MASCOT.
AND WE DESERVE TO WIN
today all school celebrates national day. the kindergarden, pri school and secondary. donnoe abt the ITE, Poly and JC. so heck care abt them. lets focus on the secondary. haha. so had to wake up at 5.30am as my class had to assembly in class at 6.30am sharp. gosh. so went out with lil brother.met up with ija and darren. and omg. shes late as usual. haiya. dh lar kite dua tk mandi rambut. haha. ssshh. so quickly went to class and glad everyone came in time. so everyone put on their sailor hat, the red cloth tat had to be tie ard our neck plus a red cloth tie on our hand.boat wasnt tat gd coz we only had 1 day to do the boat. but thanks to weiyang, the boat is quite good. so we were early. we went for a 'spin' ard the school and we were doing some sort like wave. but honestly we were super paisey. haha. everyone were looking at us. took pics of us. wow! so damn famous. so went to parade square for assembly and teachers were damn looking at us with proud and shocked. well. tats 5n2. haha. u ppl had to get used to our silly and crazy behaviour.so we stand, sang, make noise as the rest were damn restless. so luckily we were the last class as we conquered the whole place near the field. we sang the national anthem, plegde and responded to the narrator proudly with confident.people were staring at us with full of jealously. mayb. haha. coz we are the only class tat are united and patriotic. but sadly we did not win for the most patriotic. only god knows why. so our mascot was the stamford raffles. and syahrul did a great job especially in the way he did the pose.so the results were out. we won second place for the mascot thingy. and honestly we were glad tat we won something. so next was the most patriotic class. we were super confident tat we will won it as we the only class tat made a lot of noise. agree?so we were damn shocked plus the teachers when the result were out. 5N1 won the MOST PATRIOTIC. i mean the 'most patriotic'. we were super damn mad and feel like beating the jugdes. are they blind out wat. we were the most outstanding, noisy and energetic compared to 5N1. omg. even the school did not agree with the judges. the result left us a question mark to us. to all of us. seriusly we were damn mad. and we nearly fight with 5N1. argh! mad! mad! we cant really get over it. we jus mad! lets see wats gonna happen next monday when school reopens. are we gonna argue with them and even the teachers? or jus settle peacefully? or jus get over it?
till know we were trying to find out wat actually happned? so i got a qns for u peeps out there? is the jugdes being fair? i mean we were ok if other class won ah..especially the sec 4 express. they were also patriotic. its like the 5n1 did not anything and suddenly.. the most patrioctic class is 5n1. wat the ****?!so after the national day celebrations had finished, we stayback for the teacher's day auditions. really like sufi groups alot. haha. aww. so we did our skit and we were damn tired. we were not perfect. well if we get into the teacher's day celebrations, it will affect our o-level. cos the auditions will be held again after skol and we got remedial after skol. so hope we can perform the skit.ija is my post long enuf? haha. naah. got to stop here. understand understood ah..damn tired dok. haha. so jus one last qns. hope u peeps will tag me and give some comments k. be honest. hope it will make me feel better abt winning 2nd place instead of 1st place.DO 5N1 DESERVE TO WIN FOR THE MOST PATRIOCTIC CLASS??
♥ Tuesday, August 07, 2007 ♥
today im jus wanna update abt PE coz it was the period tat i had fun and doesnt make me feel dizzy no more. haha..seriusly wasnt feeling tat well today. ket wanting to vomit and my head hurts alot. discovered tat one of my eyes is bigh than the other eyes. alamk. its bd again. dulu pernah terjadi ah. gosh. gonna put some eyemo b4 sleep tonight. hehe.
PE. was damn great. mr ong suggested us to play captain's ball in the hall. and we were split into two grps. neptune and jupiter 1 ream while mercury and venus 1 team. and both of the team were damn good. haha.. so played like hell. keep jumping up and down. teamed up with syahrul. we jus played with each other, kept passing to each other. tats the only way tat helped our team to score.
but sadly the oppenent team got to know our strategy. and they kept blocking me and syahrul. gosh. but luckily darren YL became the defender and kept pushing off the ball, making the ball catcher unable to catch the ball. haha.. yeah! it was damn fun and i kept falling down and theres was one time i fell and i slide. wow. cool. breakdance man.
overall it was super great. everyone did hav fun and wanted more. so mayb the next PE lesson, we suggest to play touch ruby. im gonna play rough. haha. gonna miss all the fun we had guys. miss u all. hope we can keep in touch again once we graduate. insyallah. so stay in school till 6.30pm. did our last touch up for national day. and hope it turn out great except for the boat. haha. bluek!
we gonna win tmr. haha. hope so! all the best peeps! may the best win! haha. so till here then, entertain urself with all the pics i upload k. haha. take care. 2 more days to spore bdae! yeah!
What's done is done, I can't change time. But I'll be damned if I'm not gonna try. coz i admit i still like him.
♥ Monday, August 06, 2007 ♥
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its been two day i did not post anything. omg. all becoz im bz with my cousin's wedding and i wasnt feeling well. been vomitting since the past 2 days. so not wasting any time, let me update u peeps wat i had been doing for the past 2 days.
today i was super damn restless. i donnoe why. its like im too tired and really don hav the mood to study no more. gosh. prelim is jus next week and i hav not prepare anything for it. gonna fail coz i heard prelim is much more difficult than o-level. 
k im felt relieved now. he knew my true feelings all along and he just feign ignorance. well its ok if he just feign ingnorance coz its better that way. its like its better than he knew my feelings towars him and we will felt akwards with each other. 
i am damn missing school. this yr 5n2 really make me, my life super happy and cheerful. they really light up my life. honestly i had fun this yr. we seems to be close together that we willing to do anthing. as wat our slogan said..United We Stand. tats wat we are. hope we will be together eventhough we will be garduating this yr. hope we can meet each other once again when we hav graduate. insyallah. why are we so damn close together tat now its jus hard for us to say goodbye? been thinking abt this lately whenever i looked through all the pics we took from the day we were in the class of 5n2. early january i shud said. omg. its jus sad and hard to say gdbye to those who we are close too..especially not forgetting all the gd memories we had, the time we went through thick and thin together.
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