Colour my life

♥ Friday, November 30, 2007 ♥

argh! so super tired. yesterday was my first day at werk. well i donnoe whether yesterday was my first day of werk coz manager did not clock in for me i tink. & if she did not clock in for me yesterday then my5 hrs of washing dishes and burning my hands are all wasted. shit!

well yesterday was only the basic. washing dishes. and it was damn oily. luckily theres the machine which u put all ur dishes in a tray, close the machine and waited for the red light to go off and take out the dishes.

well i thgt i will be making pizza but then i was wrong. mayb becoz i cant touch the food yet as i haven taken my injection. tats scare me. so today gonna take the injection and off to werk on sunday. 11am-4pm. luckily its in the morning.

i jus don like to do closing. super tired. had to wipe the machine, the cold storage where the pizza dough was kept and the most shocking part for me was the part where all the dough for tat day which are not use are being threw away. wasted! haha. & closing is till 12am latest.

asked dad to fetch me home. luckily he came. seriusly was super tired. && i did not eat at all till today. yesterday i only had one meal which is breakfast at 11am. dammit. the pizza crew there were friendly except tat im still shy.

&& can i quit? then i will be the second person to quit her job on her first day. haha. coz fina is the first person. hehe.

why all gd things come to an end?

♥ Thursday, November 29, 2007 ♥

super tired especially my legs. well today the meeting place was in school. but we were being chased out by the security guards as some of us wore slippers. dammit. we were super mad. well we are ex-blss. and all we got to do is take the visitors pass and walk in. tats all. duh.

since we being chased out. we looked super pathetic and we decided to sit along the roads and waited for mdm shafie. had a short meething outside skol with mdm shafie. next destination was the macdonald pionner mall. gosh we were super noisy. well only kelly. shes so hyper active.

she talked as if her dad owned tat place. so i told everyone mayb she had not eaten her medicine yet. haha. shes sick! sick in the brain! gosh. so went giant to look for stuffs and gosh so expensive. last destination was the sieng siong. walked there and we were split into two grps.

guess wat. it was adventurous. we walked thru grass, along the drain and was nearly lost. but luckily darren knew the way. && we were the first team to arrive. yahoo! my team treated the journey as the amazing race. haha. took down all the price tat we gonna need during chalet. total $124.84.

so sat morning gg shopping. and 1 more thing, hope everyone go for the chalet include all the teachers we invited coz its gonna be a lot of foods. better come! jus so u knoe tat cuzzin also having a chalet at pasir ris and too bad it wasnt the same place as mine. haiz.

ok. i got the pizza hut job. dad must be like persuading the manager to take me in i guess. well thanks dad. so start werking today. im so super nervous coz im alone and i donnoe any single one there. well actuali i do as the pizza crew did come my hs tis raya. hehe. jus shy i shud say. hehe.

the most scary part is tat every f&b job must get an injection. its a must. oh no! im so scared. can i skip it?

wish me all the best.

♥ Wednesday, November 28, 2007 ♥

bored again. tats life when u don hav anything to do especially during school holidays. i got no jobs. no holiday plans. no nothing. all i hav is a home. a home for me to watch vcds all day. mayb till next yr. gosh. this yr electricity bill will be high then. don blame me.

waiting for dad to like tell me whether i get the pizza hut job at the same place as his. if not den too bad, im gonna find another job or mayb i will jus slack at home. so she called me last night. i thgt it was kind of emergency but it helped me reminded of someone which i don wish to think abt. gosh. well i jus hav to play along.

mayb he has not get over her. well tats ok. im moving on jus like shazlin i guess, well we are in the same boat, still drifting on the sea and the gd news is tat our boat wont sink no matter what happen. we will stay strong and fight the currents i guess. you with me, shazlin? hehe.

i tght ngaji lesson will be over since uztazah cant teach us anymore. but mum has taken over her place. gosh. i thgt i can escape from her but then whenever mum teaches ngaji at night, lil brother and I will be having ngaji class too. im ok, tats cool. really?

one wish for this dec is to wish tat everyone can make it to chalet. inlcude me.

i've give my best.
so jus go.

♥ Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ♥

went out for job hunting with fina the pelek. well jus the two of us and we can go crazy. shes damn funny and belo i shud said. haha. no hard feeling fina but its the fact. haha. its fun gg out with ya. i donnoe wats gonna happen if were to werk together. tmpt keje konperm collapse seh.

so we still waiitng for the recruit company to call us. gosh . cant believed theres a lot of ppl gg for the walk-in interview yesterday. the youngs and olds. gosh. guess we hav less hope or even no chance to get tat job uh. sibuk je.

my last resort was the pizza hut where my dad n cousin plus uncle werk. dad called the manager and told her to take me. wtf. haha. gosh but i donnoe whther i get the job or not. still waiting for them to call.

chalet will be on the 3 dec-5 dec. i hav not tell parents abt it. donna they gonna let me go the second time. i hope they trust me like they did the last time i got chalet. i need to go on this chalet coz it will be the last time we gonna spend out times with the teachers who we invited and especially with my loving classmates of mine.

&& those who werking. i hope u can take leave for 3 days. its gonna be fun. not to forget thurs going to school for the chalet meeting. looking forward for that. coz im damn missing them loads.

I used to hate to see you gone.

But this time its different.

Just go.

kamu ketahuan.

♥ Monday, November 26, 2007 ♥

♥ Saturday, November 24, 2007 ♥

aunts and cousins are so crazy abt bowling. we are so into bowling. its been a long time we play bowling. well actuali me. dad hav always disapprove me of gg out with cousins and aunts. i kinda miss out all the fun they had. well same story uh. forget abt it.so aunt planned to like hav a family match one of this days, during the school holidays.

but since some of us will be werking. dad decided to like make it on hari raya haji. omg. dad is so like duh. if tat plan goes well, then this yr raya haji will be special then. instead of like spending time at masjid or go to grandma hs, we will be spending our time playing bowling.cool kaper.

but the famili bowling match is still on no matter what. so anyone free? wanna go play bowling? its been along time i last play bowling. the last time i played bowling was with my cousins, eh wait a minute. the last time we were playing laser quest. haha. cool. u peeps shud try it especially guys. its at cdans. a cool place for kids. kids like me. haha.

been having movie marathon with lil brother at home for the last 2 days. gosh. life is so damn boring. i jus wish school can start again but then it will be gd if it can start tmr. i noe it sounds crazy. who wanna study now when actuali we get like 2 mths of holiday.

btw i still need a job!

I used to hate to see you gone.

But this time its different.

Just go.

♥ Friday, November 23, 2007 ♥

I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
Moving on,
its my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.

I'm not so okay!
&& im starting to hate you!

♥ Thursday, November 22, 2007 ♥

22 NOVEMBER 2007

A SPECIAL DAY FOR THE BLSS GRADUATES 2007.

THE DAY WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ALWAYS.

NO MATTER HOW GD OR BAD THE MEMORIES ARE.

ALL WE KNOW IS TO HAV FUN AND ENJOY FOR TODAY BIG DAY.

&& IM GONNA MISS ALL MY FRIENDS IN BLSS.

MISS THOSE TIMES WE WERE TOGETHER.

MISS THOSE LAUGHTERS AND CRIES.

MISS EVERYTHING.

ESPECIALLY THE CANTEEN FOOD. hehe :)

LASTLY ALL THE BEST AND ENJOY!

♥ Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ♥

ok. tmr is a BIG day for me. for the graduates of BLSS 2007. im not so ready yet for tmr BIG thing. gosh. im so like nervous. im so afraid tat i will screw up or did not even look nice. haiz. tat jus me. always thinking abt the bad things. aiyo. live in fear uh.

well i still hav not show my parents the dress plus accssories tat i bought for grad nite. im jus scacred tat they will disapprove of it and wont let me go. and IF tat happen. omg. it will be a worst day of my life especially at my age. so im gonna pray hard tat everythings gonna be ok btw me and my parents.

things tat i don hav for tmr grad nite is a beg. i mean a clutch? handbag? like a lady bag tat suits the dress but who cares. im not gg to bring any bag coz it will be troublesome for me to move ard but where am i gg to put all my things? dammit. think hanis! think!

&& i don wear earings coz im jus scared of it. when i was little, i did wear earings. what i remembered was tat lil brother kept pulling my earings and it came off. so since then im scared to wear it. and my 'ear hole' or ear loop? (tmpt nk sumbat earings. haha) are close. so i cant put earing anymore. thank god. haha.

ok. 15 more hrs and 30 minutes to the BIG event. im off now. gonna have a lot of rest and will meeting my hairstylist and make up girl for tmr. hehe. gosh i donnoe wat am i gg to look like tmr. wish me all the best ok.

enjoy!

♥ Monday, November 19, 2007 ♥

not feeling tat good actuali. i thgt i cud get over what dad had said. but whenever i saw him, i jus cant forget wat he said to me. tat was harsh dad. && the worst still. i had a bad dream. it hurts me more.

i thgt everything will be over the next day but today it make things worse for me. in my dream, i did cry. i thgt i was like crying in my dreams only but did not expect i did actuali cry when i woke up. the dream was like everyone was blaming me even though i did not do anything wrong. gosh.

another day has past. still waiting for thursday to arrive. haha. its grad nite. im so damn nervous. nervous tat i screw up and wont look nice. so yesterday wasnt tat bored. munirah came my hs to transfer songs to her hp. its been a long time i last saw her. damn i miss her lots. she did not change a bit but still the selenge2 type but gorgeous. tats her.

and she told me abt her times when she was doing attchment as a nurse. she said a patient spit at her. wtf. wait a minute. izzit she or her friend tat was spit by a patient? oops. i forget. nvm. jus know tat some nurse are being bully by patient. haha. patient are so unreasonable. haha. k anyone know sudin? he was a patient tat munirah had to look after.

sudin: ambikkan bende yg panjang2 tu.

munirah: huh? bende panjang? ape tu?

sudin: alah bende yg panjang tu lar.

(munirah looked confused)

sudin: alah ambik kan seluar.

the way munirah told me sounds funny. hes a funny guy uh. went JP with parents to look for a bdae gift and ate at banquet. tried a new food. actuali not a new food. its jus tat i nvr try b4 whenever i go banquet. its claypot seafood noodle. its mee hong kong ler. duh.

and the claypot was super hot tat my arm accidentally touched it. ouch! parents were shocked at my reaction. i did wanna laugh but tahan. paisey. i jus need a hairstyle and im ready for grad nite. but wat hairstyle suits me? btw im so in lup with the song hey delilah.

i gotta go my own way

& find who i really am.

♥ Sunday, November 18, 2007 ♥

" kalau kau tk nk alik umah utk 2 minggu pon boleh. kan kat umah sini boring"

tat was what dad msged me when i always slip over my cousins hs. honestly, thinking back what he said does make me cry and feel hurt. how i wish the world will change. how i wish my life will be jus like my other friends. how i wish my parents will be reasonable and can treat them like my friends. but its all how i wish. it wont happen idiot! im jus dreaming.

my life is way toooo controlling. i know lil brother does not even like his life too. as far as i concern, lil brother loves dancing. it has been his dream to become a dancer ever since he was a kid. he will work extra hard to get the steps right but dad...disapprove of his dream. why? all i noe is tat dad is such a unreasonable creature.

i know mum will not disapprove of lil brother's dream. but all becos of dad, mum had to play along with wat dad said. why? why mum? i noe its hard to not to listen to dad for once coz its every wife's duty to listen to wat her husband hav to say and the wife hav to follow all the husband's instructions and when someting is wrong, the wife takes the blame.

dammit! i really hate men.
argh

its so frustrating. btw mum, dad..u r so lucky tat i don hav the courage to talk back to u. coz if i do, things will be worse. all this while, i've been listening to u all along. although i did make some mistakes here and there, i still listen to what u guys hav to say. && bcoz of u two, i cant really spend more time with friends or even cousins whenever theres an outing and i had to lie to u both whenever i did something bad or got home late.

&& dad..my aunts are ur siblings. why cant i get along with them? why? why don u trust them? its so unfair. if grandma had treated u like the way u treated me when u were still my age, then at most u shud not treat me the same way. life has change. one day the world will change too.

haiz.
its so unfair!
i hate you, dad!

♥ Thursday, November 15, 2007 ♥

at last i bought myself a grad nite dress. but it was green in color. shud bought a black color coz i heard this yr red carpet color dress is either pink or black. so mayb tis yr grad nite, im gonna be different from the others. let say im unique. haha. coz i can predict tat almost everyone will be wearing a black dress.

i mean BLACK dress. but my green dress does look nice especially on me. thanks nyna and fina for recommend me. yeah. && sowie tat u gerlz had to look for a suitable belt for my dress. hehe.

plus i add a belt as an accessories. will be buying some more accessories to blend in with the dress and myself. mayb a big sunglasses. haha. chey dh cam celebrities nmpk. haha. total cost for my grad nite dress and belt is ard $58. can be say cheap and reasonable. however there are still other nice dress but cost ard $78-$200. tk sanggup.

after tat went to meet hidayati for a job interview at wdlands. senoko road. dammit. damn far. so went to the interview and they explained the terms and conditions. omg. quite reasonable but no transport. no way! i mean if i were to werk there, my salary will be spending more on my transport fees. no way.

&& the place is so quiet. only factories. so while we were waiting for a bus, theres 2 men looking at us. ard the age of 30-40. we jus ignored them. muka lau hensem tk ape. hmph! so as we board the bus, one of the men said. "assalammualaikum" and we were like siao. nk number nmpk. haha. relax sua. haha.

i heard tmr theres skol for the graduates. serius? no way! i cant. coz i promised hidayati to call this man for interview in teban as packers. omg. which one shud i go? oh no! oh no! shuck!

argh~

♥ Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ♥

gosh. 8 more days and it will be graduation night. panic!! coz i haven buy any dress and accessories for my graduation night! aiyo. its gonna be a last minute. hopefuli i can find a nice, beautiful, unique but cheap dress. cheap? well im trying to like save some money for other stuffs as in accessories etc.

till now no jobs available. dammit! last chance. gonna look for a factory job as packers in tuas. so if anyone of u peeps has uncles,aunties,cousins or mayb friends werking a factory don malu2 to contact me ok. desperate for money. especially 8 more days to grad nite!

decided to share money with lil brother to buy his friend's psp coz lil brother hp's bill for this month is $58++ and i kinda pity him. so since my bill tis month is ard $30++ decided to like share some money to buy the psp so tat parents wont suspect lil brother using his raya money to buy the psp. get wat i mean? gosh i did talk alot uh. haha

&& as usual im hungry. i mean my last meal is ard 11am. the time i jus woke up. and talking abt waking up, i kept having a bad dream tis few days. and im really scared tat it might happened. whenever i try to wake up from tat dream, my heartbeat will be like pumping real fast as if a ghost jus appear in front of me.

im still waiting for my mee kuah.
yum yum.

im tired with being alone.

♥ Tuesday, November 13, 2007 ♥

BOONLAYIANS.

ANYONE WANTS BOONLAY CLEAR OR RING FILE?

STILL NEW.

I HAVE ALOT OF CLEAR AND RING FILE.

IT WILL BE A WASTE TO THROW IT AWAY.

SO IF U PEEPS WANTS, JUS LEAVE ME A MESSAGE OK.

THANKS.

went to job interview at vivo. its a build-a-bear workshop. basically they will tell us what they have and what shud we do when customers come. so after explaining all the details, we did the play role with the manager who act as a customer. and i tink it was pretty bad coz i was super nervous and i think i spoke more than 1 minutes. their aim was 1 min. so we must like squeeze all the explainations in 1 minutes.

&& the most important is tat when a customers come into the shop we had to greet them loud and clear. they are also looking for a hyper, happy-go-lucky and crazy type of personalities to werk there. well i can be tat except tat jus now, i was super nervous. gosh wish i cud do better. so right now, im still waiting for them to call. pls call.! i need a job!

if. i mean IF i cant get this job, den im gonna go tuas to look for a factory job. as in packers. the salary is gd but then the werk is tough. so no choice lor. wish me all the best in finding jobs ok. thanks. && im hungry now. my last meal is at 10.30am. so food!! here i come!.

i wish i cud be ur someone.

♥ Sunday, November 11, 2007 ♥

headaches!!! and more headaches!!

gosh been looking for a job for the past few days. im still waiting for some company to like call me and give me a gd news tat i shud like turn up for werk tmr. haha. how i wish. been searching jobs in the net and i did find some suitable jobs for the N/O level qualifications. gosh but then the location is ard town aread and east area. tk sanggup seh.

well i can werk far away from the west but den if i were to like go to werk every morning as in get the morning shift, gosh its the same as i go to school early morning. it can be tiring sometimes especially when u need to travel far. but theres no vacancies in the west area.

cuzzin and friends had already got the job in town. working in coffeebean. dammit. wish i cud like tag along with them when they were looking jobs in town. but too bad. i miss another chance. haiz mayb im not born to work instead ppl work for me. chey.

argh! will be looking for jobs again tmr. hopefuli get any job. seriusly desperate for money. who does not loves money seh. will be checking out at vivo tmr. pls pray hard for me tat i get a job. pls!

at last mdrsah exams are over! yahoo! but i still need to pay 4 bucks for the exams papers. haha. mummy, i need 4 bucks. pls pay for me. thank you. haha. its not tat i don hav money to pay. its jus tat i've been saving alot for my grad nite dress, salon plus my dream camera.

I SERIUSLY NEED A JOB

ANYONE PLS, KEEP A LOOKOUT FOR ME.

&& CONTACT ME ASAP.

THANKS

♥ Friday, November 09, 2007 ♥

Happy 17th Bdae to NurHafizah Bte Norisham.

091107 marks ija's 17th bdae. at last shes seventeen already. sweet seventeen uh. haha. tis yr she made her bdae different. i mean tis yr she jus wanted to celebrate with us, her own sweet and cute classmates of her plus her close friend. so her plan was to eat pizza at JP but only 4 turned up so decided to go town as weiyang and mirdza had job interview there.

reserved place at the pizza hut at lucky plaza and went play pool while waiting for roohee to turn up. and roohee! u r soo late. we were super hungry u noe. haha. naah. its ok. u jus make it on time coz we reserved the seats at 4pm. so we were like 30 minutes early.

order two sets of student meal and additional fries plus garlic bread. soup for today was chicken soup. yum yum. we were soo full after eating the 4 different pizzas. omg. damn full. and we got a suprise for ija. mirdza and weiyang order an ice cream cake for her and the pizza hut gave us some bdae song for her and we sang along.

malu kaper ija. well hope tis day will be a memorable day for u ok. remember tat day. so after tat went to take neoprints at heeren. cool kape. haha. funny lar. we were like squeezing and keeping close to one other so tat all of us can see.

&& saw cuzzin plus her friends there. yeah. and they introduced to one another. and as for me i had to go home while the rest went to watch movie i guess. enjoy peeps. i really hav fun with ya all today. thanks. so can i ask when is the next outing? haha. btw fina, u r so funny u noe tat. becoz of u i now kept remembering abt the time lysa nearly 'kill' a man on the phone. haha

so once again, happy bdae ija. lup ya soooo much. but i still need to buy my grad nite dress and a nikon/canon camera b4 graduation night on the 22 nov 07. gosh. firstly i need to save money then go for shopping. yeahoo!!

darren asked a qns : why do mly people like to fart?

its all becoz of nurzafeena bte zairol who always fart in front of him.

btw darren, i don hav the ans. ask her.

♥ Thursday, November 08, 2007 ♥

since o-level had finished. i hav to find a job to support myself and also help to reduce my parents burden. ewah, anak yg baik dan soleh nmpk. haha. well wat to do. im gg 18 next yr and if i get into poly, i can use some of my hard earn job money to buy books and some necessary stuffs for school. btol tk? && im gg to take either a car or motor license too.

so o-level had finished means tat no more school, no more wearing school uniform and plus no more studying for the time being.yahoo but im gonna miss all my friends, especially my hang-out friends, close friends, classmates and more. miss me ok. haha. but luckily there will be graduation night for the graduates. so who will not be graduating tis yr, wait long2 ok.

prom night dress? gosh, still hav not buy any. but the other time i went suntec, i saw one lady, wearing a dress and jus a belt on her waist and it does look simple and unique. so I will be like searching for tat kind of fashion.

been gg for jobs hunting for a few days. && im still on hold. gosh i hate tat. they said they will put us on hold but the qns is will they call? oh pls do. so im waiting for the toys r us, tom & stephanie and sentosa to call. oh pls do call. i will be waiting!! or do u want me to like call elliot yamin to sing for ya'all " i will wait for you"

and gerlz, lets hav a another round of outing. it was super fun the other time. thanks. i never had tis fun b4 actuali. coz im always been grounded at home and cant always hav fun. stupid rules. it sux u noe when teenagers at my age cant hav fun. btw thanks mum for letting me out to hav fun and take a look ard the singapore with friends although we did lost our way at suntec. haha. ssshh.

btw a man gave me a friendster msg:
free on 29 nov/30 nov/2 dec? i got a part time job for ya. arrange table,chairs out cover tables. anithing jus msg me.

wat was tat? wat job seh? org kawin ke? haha. hope he will get back to me soon abt his job. yeah.

you're my dreammaker
but it will jus be a dream for me
coz it wont come true.

♥ Tuesday, November 06, 2007 ♥

At Last O-level has finish!

yahoo!

so time to enjoy till next yr then.

so any jobs to recommend?

call me asap aite.

thanks.

22 nov marks the day.

graduation night.

RED CARPET.

♥ Monday, November 05, 2007 ♥

any part time jobs to recommend?
pls inform me.
need money badly.
thanks
98479651

♥ Sunday, November 04, 2007 ♥

let say i did hav fun today although i had a madrsah exam which wat i studied did not come out especially the subject fiqh. haha. well heck care abt it. jus wrote like nobody business. haha. im sure all my ans are wrong. actuali not all wrong ah. at least i will get a max of ard 1-3 marks. haha. chey.

yesterday he msg me. wow. damn miss him. i mean as a friend. (yeke?) well its been a long time we did not msg each other. bcoz of this o-level thingy gg on, we've been not talking alot as we did not always see each other. well right after paper, we went our separate ways unless.... haha. ssshh.

so the last time tat i last msg with him was tat he told me he got a suprise for me tis grad nite. well i've been thinking a lot lately abt it and tis drives me crazy every night. well i got a habit. like say a weird habit. every night b4 i go to sleep. i will like remember all those things tat i had done or memories. i can even remember wat people said to me a few days back. cool uh. so tonight im gonna slip with a smile on my face. a big smile.
:)

so asked him abt the suprise. at first he did not want to tell me and im ok with it. well its meant to be a suprise. duh. cant u understand hanis? haha. to me. i don always like suprises. but then, he decided to tell me abt it, 5 minutes later after the last msg, and wat i guess was right. i did not expect it actuali but i knew its gonna be tat.

after o-level gonna go shopping for grad nite clothes withe lysa's friend, fina. yeah. although we in the different skol, we having the same theme. celebrities on red carpet! cool kape. haha. so gonna dress up beautifully and grand. but the problem now, i don hav enuf money. so i still hav 2 more weeks to save some money and look for the grand clothes. time is running out.

went to ma obek hs today. walaoway abg kene lecture. and i was qns too. obek's husband asked me whther i mintak maaf dgn abg during raya? then i jus said no. and they were suprised. suprised? wat? haha. well i did not do anything wrong to abg. and abg was qns too as in wther i got do anything wrong to abg. and abg cud not ans it. so abg was given a chance to say one bad thing abt me.

and he cud not coz i did not do anything wrong to him. i've been a gd sister to him. so obek asked only one qns tat will made me a bad sister. " biler abg nk pinjam duit, adek kasi? " guess wat. abg said yes. haha. he did tell the truth. and i was like. lucky me. or else i kena lecture again. haha. fuyoo. a close shave.

ok tmr my ss paper. gotta study. tue is my last paper. yahoo! then can hooray2. btw sufi better keep the promise abt u wanting to teach me how to play guitar. must teach me until i noe how to play one song. hmph! i don care. u must be patient with me too. coz im s-l-o-w. hehe.

can i like u for awhile?

♥ Friday, November 02, 2007 ♥

heloo!

gosh. today phy paper was quite ok. easy. can do most of the qns. except for sectionB which u had to choose only 2/3 qns. and guess wat. all the three qns was super difficult. i jus wrote wat i noe and wat my brains told me too. aha..sometimes u gotta listen to ur brains too than listening to ur heart always. if i was to listen to my heart. i will be sleeping than doing the paper. ehhe.

so teman ija and her mum to clinic as her mum is not feeling well. as usual i was bullied by her. gosh. why am i alwsy the victim. omg. ate breakfast and went off to gym. yahoo! been a long time we did not go to the gym. all the fats are coming back. haha.

suddenly, ija's heart was like beating super fast. i can really see its pumping damn hard when she showed it to me (oops censored). i really donnoe wat to do. she was damn afraid tat anything cud happen. so tld her to rest b4 continue our running on the trackmill.

after tat proceed to giant and mac to study for ss paper on monday. gosh. cud not study at all. so many distractions. guess i hav to study at home. lock myself in the room and not to go out till if finish studying. tats a gd idea. hehe. shud try it peeps.

sue,sakinah and azwan came along. cant really studied as i said theres too much distractions. ppl lining up to buy food, ppl coming in and out of the macdonald, ppl talking and more lar. bljr kat kubur pon baik ah. senyap je. limit2 tak tahu tanye je yg si mati. isk. kalaulah mereka jawb balik, aku lar yg mati. mati kerana terkejut.

plans after o-level. go watch movie with cousins. cari keje and bljr main guitar with sufi. enjoy with friends. preparations for grad nite. lastly buy nikon camera!! pls mum!

u noe wat. i seems to like emo. i mean i don like to be emo or like emo ppl. i like the way they dress up. the clothes are cool. so i will be like doing a emo research on their clothes and MAYB can wear it for grad nite. i say MAYB. hehe. a emo kid in a dress? how bout it? cool?

Its not about whose right, or whose wrong
Its not about whose weaker, or whose strong
Its not about whose innocent, or whose fault
It aint really bout that kind of thing at all
Its not about who does it, who done it, or did it to who
Dont matter if the both of you lose
Its really not bout nothing, xcept for me and you