For too many days now,

i've begged for patience and strength

but was estrangled to oneself.

Three words, eight letters,

so difficult to say.

They're stuck inside of me, they try and stay away.

But this is too important to let them have their way.

I need to do it now, I must do it today.

I am sorry.

forgive me, wont you?

I PASSED MY PRACT 1.03 (:

At this point of time, i just want
to be abnormal than
being so normal

• HAPPY DEEPAVALI !

• spent my time watching tv, eat, sleep all day

• my hand still swollen and mum kept asking me to put ice and it dont seem to work

• oh doctor, i need to see you soon if it wont heal (:

• revised my computing mathematics and i need help !

• desperately wanting to watch high school musical 3 soon, anyone this week ?

• there is PE lesson tomorrow and looking foward for the touch ruby session !

• another motor practical session this friday (:

Cinderella with no shoe, and the prince that doesn't know he's lost.

• was early for school than usual

• saw two accidents at the AYE expressway

• had toast for breakfast (:

• had networking practical lesson today and it was soo boring

• 12pm-1pm, went for our cca meeting

• had a 30 minutes break before next lesson starts

• visual basic lesson was hilarious especially when you sit with a belo friend

• camwhored with the girls and it was awesome

• bus-ed home with my belo gf and she just wont stopped laughing (:

• and he is f**cking irritating nowadays, HMPH!

• my left palm is still swollen, gotta get well soon before friday

• readers, please tag (:

• was kinda early for school today

• had our morning crap as usual

• networking class was super boring especially when the teacher talked alone

• we need a change of teacher as soon as possible (:

• 3/4 of the pupils were absent today as they were retaking their o-levels (:

• mathematics class today was awesome and finally we learnt something !

• although i hate maths, i gotta push myself in learning maths once again

• PE was the last period and it was like in the afternoon -.-

• planning of escaping PE was declined as soon as we decided to play touch ruby

• for now, im sooo loving touch ruby especially playing with my IT1B (:

• had a hard knock on the head and kinda feeling dizzy right now :(

• fatihah, hows ur english papers ? i need to talk to you about something !

trained to choa chau kang, LRT-ed to senja

finding her house was like amazing race

rafidah ahd a fall due to her 3 inches heels

had mee soto

trained to boonlay interchge, bus-ed to my crib

rafidah was excited to see grandma as we related as cousins

sorry, mum did not cook anything

bus-ed to khadijah's crib, camwhored inside the bus

ate fried rice with chicken wings

took opportunity to charge my handphone

bus-ed to fatihah's crib, abt thress bus stops away

it was on the last floor and omg, the air is soo cooling

had lemon chicken rice and it was awesome!

cabbed to hairul's crib

khadijah had a fall before she board the taxi, aduh !

camwhored instead of entertaining hairul's mum

bus-ed to rafidah's crib and it was pouring

had mee siam and begedel !

pity her mum wasnt feeling that well

LRT-ed to yusri's crib

he stayed on the highest floor like fatihah

camwhored and his mum was friendly (:

LRT-ed once again to yan's crib

it was a long walk to his crib from LRT

had noodles and chicken wings

nadia and khadijah left early while we trained to saiful's crib

• slept damn early than usual yesterday

• had two riding theory practice at 10am-12pm and i did pretty well

• had my riding teory evalution right after that and i scored 100% (:

• booked my riding teory test and it will be on the 29 november

• started my morning with a smile and went home with a broken heart

• failed my riding practical, too slow, changing gears, wobble stopping etc

• honestly was pissed off and now have to book the same practical AGAIN !

• seriously need to save some money and not spend unnecessarily ) :

• looking forward for tomorrow IT cliques raya outing

• blogreaders,relatives,friends,visitor....please tag so that i can thank you for visiting

• randy, so sorry to hear about ur grandma, stay strong aite, everyone has to die

• fatihah, watch out tomorrow, im gg to make you paisey, bluek !

• was damn sleepy today than usual

• did manage to have a short nap in the bus while on the way to school

• gg to school in new semester had been tiring and sleepy

• if u reading this, sorry that i made you feel left out, it did not suppose to be that way

• playing uno stacko with the cliques is sooo kecoh and noisy (:

• saiful, send me the yesterday pics and today pics pls, thanks

• JPD teacher is soo kind that she released us 1hr and 30 mins early (:

• 5 of us decided to accompany brendon cut his hair at j.west

• & tea-tarik bandung is awesome and delicious (:

• slacked under the void deck with kecohrables and gossiped (:

• topics : negative side of our friends,us and more that should not be told here (:

• their jokes,smiles cheered me up as i wasnt in a good mood today actually

• wish me luck for tomorrow riding theory evalution and practical

• soo looking forward for saturday raya outing (:

• RTP at 8am, reached bbdc at 7.30am, how cool is that ? -.-

• met up with rafidah otw to bukit gombak interchge

• off to meet the j.east cliques den proceed to school (:

• school cafe toast are super delicious especially when you are hungry (:

• once again, wasnt in the mood to study new modules ):

• camwhored in class while the teacher was teaching, thats show how bad we are

• either no break or just a 10-15 mins break b4 next class starts, urgh!

• saiful, u better tag me each time u visit my blog, and pics please (:

• i need a bathe right now !

• friday off to bbdc for motor practical, wish me luck please (:

" AUNTY, ONE FISH AND ONE BURGER " , SAID FATIHAH

• 2nd day of school was ok

• 243G was super duper late than usual

• had a serious painful stomach cramp

• cant really focus in class

• not given a break and we self-declared our break and went to next lesson late

• new semester, new modules = mathematics ):

• im so not gg to getting used to the new time table

• school starts 8am everyday except thurs = 11am, fri = no school

• went to bbdc at 2pm as i booked a riding theory practice

• oh yah, i got the chief's approval in getting the smaller bike for practical

• met up with cuzzin to accompany her to buy a cake for bf at choa chu kang

• tomorrow off to bbdc from 8am-10am , then proceed to school -.-

• conflicts among my dad's siblings are getting worse ):

• panadol i need you !!

THANKS FATIHAH FOR THE 'WATER SPLASH' DIRECTLY ON MY FACE!

• first day of school was awesome but sleepy -.-
  

• as usual met up with the others at canteen

• started my morning crap with them just to cheer them up early morning (:

• gonna be tired for the new semester as wed and thurs 8am-5pm -.-

• new teacher and wondered where esther went,not teaching us anymore ):

• learning new modules, gotta focus

• everyday school starts at 8am, sian -.-

• decided to book for RTP tomorrow as school finish early at 12pm

• had a nice afternoon sleep today after school

• so looking forward for the IT raya outing this saturday (:

• rafidah is my cousin cum schoolmates cum classmates

• yeahoo, my bodyaches are gone

• slipping over at JB yst wif relatives was cancelled due to grandma's nagging

• house visiting with family yst but i wasnt in a best mood coz' of the JB cancellation

• in the end lil brother and i did not follow to house visiting to JB today ):

• kelly, sorry cant accompany you today

• at home, waiting for relatives,neighbours,friends to come for house visiting?

• the best part is that school starts tomorrow !

• oh yah, i tuned into the OKTO channel already (:

• & IT1B, what time do we need to come to school tomorrow? any idea?

• new time table for new semester are still not out yet

• oh i missed school cafe's beancurd and bandung with more milk !

• $150 raya money left ):

Happy Birthday DAD!

• planned to wake up in the afternoon but was annoyed by the hp vibration

• went out with my hot-all time-favourtite cousin to look for gifts (:

• woke up and oh my god, i cant hardly move, bodyaches ):

• i seriously need a full body massage

• bought another word search book to keep me company to and from school (:

• worst part is that my raya collection is going to finish soon ):

• school time table for new semester is not out yet !

• im sooo ready to go school

• sunday going JB for house visiting and parents dont encourage me to follow ):

• heard tonight gg raya house vsiting by lorry and wondered if my family are going

• damn freaking need the bed to sleep

• shasha, take care ok, i will pray for you to get well soon ok <3

• whole day at bbdc from morning to late evening -.-

• im so glad IC outdoor activity was postponed (:

• all theory lessons done, focusing on teory practice and evalution

• today was my practical circuit and was given a big and heavy blue bike

• due to my height and size constraint, i fell twice and the side mirror cracked

• requested for the smaller bike and it was fun (:

• did a few practice but did not seem to get it right tho but managed to pass (:

• the instructors were friendly and funny but dont know abt the others

• ok, cant type too much, seriously from head to toe, its aching!!

• school starting sooooooon! (:

• fatihah, thanks for waiting for me till lesson ends (:

• yesterday was my 1st riding theory lesson and it was at night

• it was fun as the instructor was super funny and nice (:

• slip over cousin's house yesterday as today class was at 10am

• today was my 2nd riding theory lesson and seriously im sleepy due to lack of sleep

• did a riding theory practice and oh my god, i failed but lucky it was just a practice

• cousin and i decided to take another practice tmr to boast our confidence

• & tomorrow is my first practical circuit lesson (:

• cant go for IC outdoor activity tmr as it clashes with my bbdc schdule

• ok i suffering a bad headache due to lack of slip and waking up early ):

• time to sleep (:

• fatihah, if u reading this, see you tomorrow ok (:

• ija came over and spent her afternoon at my house (:
  

• went to aunt house with family as cousin gg NS the next day and ija tagged along too
  

• the chicken and prawn cooked by aunt were awesome and delicious!
  

• we decided to play the online colorblind test as some of us are colorblind
  

• http://www.toledo-bend.com/colorblind/Ishihara.html COLOBLIND?
  

• http://www.maniacworld.com/color_blind_test.htm MUST TRY!
  

• yesterday was the day we saw grandpa laughed till he cried and he is so cute (:
  

• & cousin sent us home by car

07 october 08

• ate roti prata for breakfast
  

• today is my first teory lesson, im so excited
  

• & cousin will be my classmates today as he cleared the color test yesterday
  

• psst, he is colorblind and he managed to clear it (:
  

• plus we booked the same session, thank god, im not alone !
  

• im soo cant wait to start school !!
  

• kecohrables, guitar heroes before school starts?
  

• its the 5th day of raya and i seriously had enough of house visiting

• this year raya isnt that happening or great actually except for the 1st day of raya

• went house visiting to mum's and dad's side and it was great but was damn sleepy -.-

• once again, my stomach feel bloated since the very first day ):

• psst, i gained sooooo much weight and im sooo hating it right now

• raya money collection has been great since the very first day (:

• cousin is trying his luck to enrol for motor registration although he is colorblind!

• dad is having a bad cough and i really hope he wont pass the virus to me

• IT cliques, book ur 3rd week weekends for raya outing please !

• im so ready for schooooool !

• did not update for 2 straight days as i was super tired and busy

• & thanks dad for accompanied me for motor registration (:

• $120 spent on lessons booking and registration, $6 for passport photo
  
  
  

• 07 october - 09 october going to keep myself busy gg to bbdc (:
  

• today went house visiting to mum's side with family excluding brother

• honestly i do hate brother sometimes coz' he tend to put friends his 1st priority

• & i got a free javanese feet massage from aunt and it was super cool and nice (:

• been sleeping late and waking up early ):
  

• oh im so cant wait to start school, dont the MOE knows i miss my friends (:

• tomorrow gg house visiting again but this time to dad's side

• & my stomach felt so bloated ever since the first day of school

• oh yah, i get to hold once again nikon camera today (:
  
  
  

• im so gg to own nikon camera soon. but not so soon *winks*
  
  
  

• im slightly colorblind! oh god!

• lastly, thanks my beloved 5n2 for visiting my house for raya