♥ Wednesday, November 25, 2009 ♥
Its been quite a while now
Since we shared stories
And time is slowly passing me by
And it's driving me insane
Its weird to think that two people
Who were so close like sisters
Could turn out not even on speaking terms
To be like we promised never.
And I sit back and think a lot
That was the reason i've been missing
And pretended everything was fine.
And yes I feel like a loser
More like coward, running away from it
Worst, blaming everyone
I fell in love with you as a friend
You were my girl, my sister, my everything
I thought what we had would never end.
And then one day it just stops
We dont contact like we used to
Wondering if i'm doing the right thing
You tried hard to save our friendship
But you should know me better, stubborn
Never for once forget about the great times we've had
The crazy and silly things we did
Trying to put this time behind me
Trying so hard not to blame
But truth is i do
I blame you or was it just me
You asked long ago if there was issues
I claimed nothing to say
Because if i spoke of how i felt
I'm scared that everything will change
I should sort out our friendship
That something had to be rearranged
You must be tired of asking, wondering and questioning
Tip toeing around the right thing to say
Truth is you were a friend,
The way a best friend should be
I hope you will not give up on me
I want the old us back
I miss you soo much
the least you can do is lie to me
that everything will be okay
♥ Tuesday, November 24, 2009 ♥
Happy
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain’cause love won’t set you free
I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy But safe as could be
So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy I just wanna be happy, yeah
Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces Different place
Get me out of here I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy
Oh, happy Oh
So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.
♥ Friday, November 20, 2009 ♥
thanks to the accident i had, i got my llife
back for three days, going to work for only
2 days this week, it feels so great and free
ever since the attachment took over my
life there are so many things i miss doing
taking the same route to school everyday,
skip in between lessons and the only place
you can find me is at the school hall playin'
ping pong, those frequent meet-up outside
the girl's toilet when we were supposed to
be in class studying, school food especially
cafeteria cheap western food, after school
hangouts especially with my kecohrables !!
that's school for me & list goes on (:
lastly i miss this big bully cousin of mine
♥ Thursday, November 19, 2009 ♥
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I
why do i have to try so hard?
♥ Sunday, November 15, 2009 ♥
14 november 2009
elana's 4th advance birthday
personal favourite boy i met at the bdae party
15 november 2009
met up with the boy who i chatted at alamak chatroom,
and because of him, i was late in meeting someone, so i
sped and then i hit a car, the woman told me she did give
a left signal but i dont think so, even the rider behind me
agreed with me, so since it was my 1st road accident, i
did not ask for compensation or whatever, but the woman
was kind enough to give me plaster, okay la tu, HAHAHA!
believe it or not, after the accident, i still proceed to
accompany my friend to buy his helmet near sim lim square
although my x1 was not in a good condition, right after that
off to meet my gila gf to some chit-chat sessions, kecoh doh
oh great, i'm in pain. sigh
♥ Thursday, November 12, 2009 ♥

11 november 2009
all i could remember was danial and i was soaking
wet in the rain, it was the time we were having
our lunch and there the rain came down, heavily
we had no choice but to just ride in the rain as we
we buying lunch for one of our colleagues, upon
reaching office, we could not do anything to dry
ourselves so imagine sitting in an aircon-ditioner
room, soaking wet for about 4 straight hours !!!!
met up with the usual cliques after work and sorry
i wasnt in my best mood plus i had a fever out of
sudden due to the raining and not drying myself up
12 november 2009
cough, headache & fever but still came for work, as
usual did nothing but we managed to find another
malay/indian stalls nearby our office and because of
danial, i cant have my waffle, there goes my craving
met up with khai and annafi, like finally i get to meet
khai, well i missed him since i started my attachment
kawan-kawan, jangan jealous okay, i miss you all too la
and sadly my clutch cable putus AGAIN, so no more
riding to work tomorrow, thanks alot X1, u making
my life so miserable right now, dont friend you uh !
wonder if i'll be alone tomorrow at work, danial is
taking a day off tomorrow for his investiture thingy
oh danial, please dont leave me alone at work, sigh
♥ Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ♥

Simon Barker As Patrick Jane ; The Mentalist
i feel so lost out of sudden, worst part i dont
feel like seeing anyone of you, feelings suck
but i'll be able to see that man tonight, on TV
dont worry, i'll be okay
♥ Monday, November 09, 2009 ♥
07 november 2009
zoo outing with just cousins, no adults, it felt so
awesome okay, without having someone to nag
at you, doing things that it's not allow etc, HAHA
cousin treated us all the whole day, he paid for
everything, yes everything! it does not start well
as it began to rain so decided to take a break &
have our light breakfast, fyi we bought finger food
it started to stop as soon as the splash show was up,
best part of the show was the sealion, he was well
trained and funny okay, pity did not manage to video
the whole actions, after covering the whole zoo, we
had KFC for dinner plus ben & jerry for dessert, nice


night time, off to funan and penisular to look for camera
lenses, thanks to cousin who paid everything during our
zoo outing, that now i have 2-in-1 lense for my D3000!!
psst, he paid for me first & parents aint know about it !!!
8 november 2009
attended cousin's wedding at bukit batok, it was not fun
like the previous cousin's wedding but once again i learnt
something from the photographer, well he was dad's old
friend and he was willing to teach me, thanks uncle, haha
and not only that, one of my relatives, lent me his built
in flash for the wedding photography, it was okay, the
pictures turned out well, wonder should i buy myself a
cheap built in flash for the time being? shall ask dad for
it since he kept saying that built in flash is a must ! HAHA

i cant stop thinking about you
♥ Friday, November 06, 2009 ♥

nasi lemak made my morning so kenyang, ok lame
it was delicious okay, it's been a long time i had
nasi lemak packed with daun pisang, so was glad
the broadband was not taken away by them, so we
did our own stuffs as always but still we were bored
after lunch, i'm glad gila gf called me up, at least
i have someone to entertain me rather than staring
at my laptop, doing nothing, soon after, our teacher
in charge, mr harold gan came over to do some spot
check & it was hilarious because we somehow told
him white lies, if you people have been reading my
blog, ever since we start our attachment, we were
not given a proper job instead we were facebook-ing
after work, off to CCA branch for my lil brother's
drum major passing out parade, was on time but i
cant seem to take good shots today, pissed off sia
psst, i'm proud of my lil brother when i looked at
him, marching with the others, hohoho, hopes he
does not read this, well if you do, congratulations!

yeah, going to the zoo tomorrow with cousin, hope
my photography mood will be one tomorrow or else
i'll be siting at the corner, crying, HAHAHA, kecoh pe
someday i'll be gone but not for too long.
♥ Thursday, November 05, 2009 ♥
did not ride to work today due to the wet
and bad weather, so going public transport
was my only choice, paid 60cents for my bus
fare but the driver said it was $1, ended up
i put another $1, total $1.60 because i was
too lazy to search for 40cents, HAHAHAHA!
not only that, the ezlink machine did not
accept the new ezlink card, so testing my
patience early morning but on a brighter side
i got seat all the way to work, super great!
although danial is such an asshole,oops, well at
least he figured out how to create a wireless
access since they shut the internet access, it
was fun 'hacking' into the wireless and renamed
it as MilkTeaCOMM, praying hard they will not
know about it and take away the broadband or
else life is so going to be miserable, no way !!
i'm trying not to tell you but i want to
i'm scared of what you will say
♥ Wednesday, November 04, 2009 ♥
.awesome japanese movie.
another long day at work, no internet access
as usual, journey to work wasnt smooth, heavy
jam towards stevens road, how i wish there is
a lane for only motorbikes so that we riders
dont have to squeeze in between, it does freak
me out to squeeze in between because cars dont
really give signal when changing lanes, stupid!
upon reaching work, had my sleep since there
is no internet access, listened to my mp3 as i
slept till lunch break, had burger king for lunch,
i was still full from yesterday dinner that i only
ate the fries and the BK burger is still in my beg
as usual, every wednesday, off to school to fetch
nur fatihah ab aziz, off to have dinner with mr
helmi and mr muntazar, not to forget nur fatihah
at mr teh tarik jurong west, after dinner, i threw
up, there goes my money, sedih pe, sigh sigh !!

im so not looking forward to work tomorrow
♥ Tuesday, November 03, 2009 ♥
i'm so hating my day today especially at work
journey to work wasnt that smooth as usual,
how i wish work was just a few blocks away
i'm starting to hate attachment life, i'm away
from my friends, my close friends, hardly has
time for myself, no more hangouts, missed all
my late night tv programmes, how i wish time
could just slow down and i can enjoy those
beautiful view i've been missing alot lately
5 more weeks and sayonara to attachment
but sadly there will be no internet access
till we 'graduate' from there, they somehow
shut the internet access, so heartless la kan
i wonder if everyone has lost my numbers
because i hardly get any message or calls
not even half a day, tanam sudah handphone
♥ Monday, November 02, 2009 ♥
cousin's solemnization at woodlands, sadly i did
not bring 'boyfriend' along as brother brought it
to his camp, freaking pissed off okay, so stayed
till night but i was glad mun was willing to come
to woodlands to slack with me, at least there is
someone to be there when i'm so freaking bored
01 november 2009

cousin's marriage ceremony, was glad cousin lend
his nikon since brother was using it for his outing &
i managed to get some tips from the photographer
it was okay, i just learnt abt the +/- exposure thingy
02 november 2009
i woke up and was glad it's finally november, at last!
attachment is so going to end soon, i aint going to miss
my attachments at all except that i have this irritating
working partner, muhammad danial, oops! sorry danial
today work was freaking bored, the technicians somehow
shutdown the internet server for dont know why, pissed
off okay, kenapa la dorang dengki sangat eh? merepek doh
so we spent our time watching movies on laptop, boring!
.40 more days.