♥ Saturday, June 19, 2010 ♥
16 June 2010
had my taekwondo training as usual on every wednesday, i was
damn late as it was raining heavily, upon reaching school i was
soaking wet from neck to toe, training was awesome, did a few
patterns and had a sparring sessions, the best part of all during
training but this time, i was injured. on my first match, it was
with a girl, a girl who was just like me, sporty and rough, we had
our kicks non-stop then bang! we hit on each other shin which i
had a bruise while playing skateboard a few days ago, damn !!
so i tried to hide the pain especially from coach but for my next
match, i was told to spar with a fat tall big guy and of course he
had a stronger kicks than me, while sparring, coach asked me to
not go away from him and counter-attack him whenever i can but
once again bang! we hit on each other shin which was on the same
shin i was hit on my first match, end of match, started to feel the
pain, looks a little swollen and then it spread to my upper feet !!
despite the injuries, sparring is always my best 'subject' in taekwondo
not to forget, nur fatihah and the rest ganged up to do a belated suprise
birthday for me, damn i totally forgot about the belated celebration, they
did told me about it but a week later i forgot all about it and then they
went.."SUPRISE" with a cake and a birthday song in public, friends, please
do no, DO NOT give me any suprises, i dont quite like it because i dont
know how am i going to react to it but then i'm touched on what they did
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check out my photography tumblr whenever you free okay friends :D
♥ Thursday, June 10, 2010 ♥
8 June 2010
the day i turned 20th years old, morning met up with nur
fatihah to drop by our private school at city hall, we had
our own documents to be settled, before heading there,
we dropped by J.CO donuts for brunch, thanks nur fatihah
for the donut and ice choclated treat, thanks for making
me smile too especially on my special day, love you always
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after done with our school documents, we went our separate
ways, i went off to meet michelle at tampines for IKEA thingy,
had our lunch and walked around the IKEA, then shuttle bus to
bedok and home sweet home back to jurong, thank you michelle
for asking me out, i had fun, shall meet you soon okay, love you
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little brother suprised me with a mini cake, he told me he did
not eat in school just to buy me a cake, i'm so freaking touched
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as for the rest of you, thank you so much for the birthday wishes
♥ Sunday, June 06, 2010 ♥
come on la be mature, i've done my part but
you dont seem to bother about it, well for your
info i am sorry part was for mum's sake so if
you cant accept my apologies, so be it, whatever
when i was there, making the first move to say
i was sorry, you dont even bother to play a part
in it too, instead you were being sacarstic, thanks
alot old man, dont know if i was right to give in to you,
i'm still sure i was not 100% wrong in that situation,
you were out of control, wont listen to anyone of us
so blame your ego-ness, i had enough of your attitude,
so you wont care much about my life anymore, so be it.
i'm so not okay
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i just want everything to end fast.
guess i shall make the first move so
that i can get over it fast and get my
life back, i'm so not okay. . . . . . . .
♥ Thursday, June 03, 2010 ♥
it's been 4 days 3 nights and still there is no
change of situation, everyone in the family is not
talking, we somehow prefer to be mute and deaf
rather than talk things out, this time the problem
is kinda serious, damn serious that only dad can
end this serious problem but sadly the problem now
is dad himself while the rest of us have no choice but to
wait and wait every single day, when is it going to end?
never feel this scared living in my own house, trying
not to collide with someone i'm trying to avoid in this
home, it's kinda tough but the feeling of fear is there,
life isnt the same anymore for my family & myself, sigh
every night, i cried myself to sleep, hoping not to see the
sun the next day, just want to sleep and never wakes up,
believe me, happy family isnt always in my dictionary, hate
seeing any family being happy together, the feeling of envy
is there too, you always find me so cheerful and making you
laugh each time we meet but behind closed doors, i'm a very
different person who you wont want to get to know as a friend
My heart is broken.
All my scars are open.
Tell them what i hoped would be impossible.
And now when all is gone, there is nothing to say )’:
♥ Wednesday, June 02, 2010 ♥
i shall take back my words on my previous post
about me being a lucky daughter in the family,
being lucky does not last that long, 2 days ago
i really had a big fight with dad, never in my 19yrs
of life, i really stand up for little brother, after
that incident, i just cant stop asking myself if it was
a big mistakes to really get involved in the fight or
a big sacrifice for me as i lost my only chance to get
into a private school, i hope dad was joking about
it despite i made him so freaking mad, so mad he
decided to wash his hands off my affairs, this is a
very serious matter, trust me, i shall not elaborate about
what really happened to my family and me 2 days ago
just that i aint that lucky anymore, i'm lost, nowhere
to go except praying hard dad will come to his sense
and forgive what i had done and what he had done too
friends, there is no way you can contact me for the time
being, my hp was being confiscated by dad, no using of
computer too, so that means you wont see me online for
this few days,months? only way to contact me is by my house
how am i able to update this? glad dad did not take away
this laptop so i stole people's wireless account and make use
of it, so i guess friends, you can either leave me a facebook
message and best leave your number so that i can contact you
if im unable to get into people's wireless, i shall ask my gf to
login my account and check if any of you leave any message &
i try my best to reply your messages as soon as possible okay
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